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In recent days, I always dream about my first love. What happened in my dream was still the story of the age when I fell in love with her. I still drink the milk prepared by my mother every morning, breathe the freshest air in the morning, and ride a bicycle alone with the light of the slightly cold sunlight in the bright July, on the way to school. However, the story in school has changed. I no longer dared not to look in the direction where I could see her to see if she was just walking on the road; I no longer happened to see her walking in front of me after the car turned, and then I must tidy up my hair, she became the most handsome riding posture and then surpassed her; She was no longer going to the toilet or the small supermarket. When passing by the classroom which was one level higher than mine, she deliberately spoke loudly to the people around her, then at last, she looked at whether she found me in the classroom. Of course, when I looked at her, she happened to look at me. That was perfect, which must be enough for me to be excited for several months; I was no longer expecting that the teacher in the second class in the morning must be delayed, it is best to wait until the whole school students have already stood up and started to do exercises, then our class will set off in a whole team. Because of that, I could pretend to run in front of their class with the most conspicuous gesture, thinking that she would laugh at us for being late, thinking that she must have noticed me. Even if in most cases, the teacher would not choose that class to be delayed, and I would do wrong on purpose by not doing exercises seriously, expecting to turn around, She could smile at my mistakes and carelessness. However, the stories in the dream are all plots that I dare not think about at that time. At that time, I could only look forward to a glance and a word when I came across. In the dream, I was in the same class with her. I would walk to her with infinite pride and look at her intently. Finally, she would avoid her shyly. Chatting, giving exercises, every move is full of love, and you can see her in a fixed position every day. The reality was cruel, and finally I could see her less and less often. After six years of unrequited love, she came back to her alma mater when I was about to take the senior high school entrance examination. When I heard the news that she came and stood outside, we had not seen each other for nearly a year. The only time I met carefully, I finally didn’t get the consent of God. I remember that it was a weekend, Friday night, and I forgot whether I calculated it by myself or heard from others. Students in high school will have a holiday this week. It happened that a good girl in my class and I (called her Xiao Wei later) took charge of this blackboard newspaper. She and Xiao Wei are also good friends. I proposed to ask her to help me write, and Xiaowei agreed. I was always excited that night, feeling that I didn’t sleep much. I kept thinking about what kind of clothes I would wear tomorrow, what to say and how to behave. The next day, I just saw Xiao Wei alone. I took the initiative to ask the reason. It was because her dog died. Xiaowei saw that her crying eyes were swollen. She didn’t mention the thing that she and I went to school to do blackboard newspaper today, but only said, I have to go to school to run blackboard newspaper. Later, I heard Xiaowei said that she was blamed by her for not calling herself together. Although hearing this, I am very happy, I am very sure that she loves me. However, I still hate why the dog died today, why she died before Xiaowei went, and why she cried the saddest when Xiaowei went to her house. If it was not deliberately arranged by fate, what else could it be. We had never seen each other since we felt uneasy for a whole section and blushed for a whole section of chemistry. Because I didn’t have the same class with Xiao Wei in high school, and she was also busy making boyfriends, so I never heard of her again. At that meeting, I plucked up the courage to let Xiaowei give her two alumni records and ask her to write for me. Her handwriting is very chic and handsome. If it wasn’t for this, I certainly wouldn’t have the courage. She said on the paper that she was nervous and said that I knew why. I have kept that piece of paper till now. However, behind this happiness is that we have lost contact since then. Just a few hazy times, I seemed to have seen her on the bus to school; It seemed that in the spring of her college entrance examination, I secretly asked my friend to send her a letter of encouragement, when I stood aside and waited for her, I seemed to have seen her. Just knowing that there was no chance to meet her in the future, don’t turn around in a hurry for fear of being discovered by her. In the summer vacation of 2014, I was a sophomore and she was a senior. We unexpectedly met again at the post office in our town. At that time, I had been with my girlfriend for nearly three years. The employee in charge of teaching how to fill out the form is her friend. She came here to play with her. When I recognized her, I was not very nervous. On one hand, I already had a girlfriend; On the other hand, I wore a mask, a hat and black-framed glasses. I don’t think she recognized me. She had an ordinary chat with her friends, but that was the first time I heard so many words from her. I told myself that she was quite capable of talking, and she was also an ordinary person like me. I used to think she was out of reach and mysterious. I still didn’t have the courage to greet her, just like a few years ago, I didn’t dare to say one more word in front of her. I know that now I don’t have the feeling of love for her now. However, I have to admit that I still deeply love her in the past. I am very clear that what I miss is the youth, the ignorance and naivety of My Love at the beginning. However, it must be admitted that there must be her in that memory. It was she who appeared after she was 12 years old that made me miss and want to return to the youth at that time. It was her appearance that gave me all the emotions I should have at that age. Spring elimination snow

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