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If I once said the beginning, then please believe that every Beginning of mine has a different meaning, and I also believe that every beginning is special, even if those beginning seem so ordinary in 1993, I don’t know whether summer is far away or autumn is just coming. I can’t know the specific moment, but I regard that year as the beginning of my coming to this world. That year I am one of thousands of newborns, and it was also a negligible existence in the vast universe. I didn’t know that I didn’t receive the welcome from everyone until I came, but it didn’t matter. I was lucky to come to my family who loved me. The year I didn’t remember in 1993, the year I had no memory for a long time, but that year was the starting point of all my beginnings. Maybe fate tied myself with those people from that moment, the moment I was born. That year, I got a father who loved me very much; That year, I got a mother who loved me very much; That year, I got a brother who loved me very much. Even though I didn’t have the ability to remember at that time, I couldn’t understand the feelings they put on me, but those real things would never disappear, because every time I think of it, I can touch it. Besides loving my family, I also got a lot of things to accompany them, such as relatives, neighbors, playmates of the same age, love, care, hate, flowers and trees, etc. I have to mention that some things can be possessed forever, while some things can only stay for a short time, but I still appreciate every appearance and existence. How to describe that year, or how to say that beginning? Can you say that you have been secretly brought to this world? Is it a bit ridiculous? The beginning I have always believed in is so ridiculous and unspeakable! However, I don’t think I came at an unexpected time. At least I have never regretted coming to this world, and I don’t think anyone has done anything wrong. In my subconscious mind, I I am believe that every person or thing who comes to this world is special, while every child who comes to the world is to complete a special task, and even everything has its own mission. I believe that some people will think that my beginning was an accident, which was not prepared for anyone. I also believe that my beginning brought happiness to some people, from inside to outside. In fact, I don’t need to think about or pursue those unknown beginnings, or ignore those neglected beginnings, but I can’t control the desire to explore the past. Time and time again suppressed the desire that was eager to dig out his own beginning, but it still couldn’t be obliterated after all. I am just an ordinary existence, unable to compete with too many things, nor can I defeat every Demon in My Heart. Maybe what I want to explore is not the beginning, but a question hidden in my heart for many years, but at the beginning, it seemed that we couldn’t tell the secret casually. There was never a time when I wanted to uncover the secret that could not continue, but in the end, I still lacked some courage. The beginning that could not hurt others eventually became a mystery! Maybe no one cares about that fan except myself, or no one is as confused as I am. At the beginning of the question, I don’t know whether I can only be a fan in my heart forever, and whether I will be willing and compromise? Even if it is not what I want, I will not be dissatisfied with it. Maybe I was doomed to get rid of those inherent natures from the moment I was born. In fact, what I like most is the indifference and quietness hidden behind all natures, a kind of indifference, there is also a kind of quietness. So even if I lose my way in doubt, I can find the light shining on myself and the beginning that never depreciates myself, because I have said that I always believe that every beginning has a different meaning, it is also a special existence like (prose editor: Ke Er) the snow in spring

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