Confused

Over the years, I have been in a nominal leisure position in the company. Although the economy is not very affordable, I still spend my whole life compared with some colleagues, even a single person can’t get a seat. It’s a little stronger. In those years, when I just squeezed into the leading group of the company, the top leaders made troubles for me, bullied me and suppressed me. I endured it in principle during that time. Now I think about it, I feel that I am a bit of a man’s ability to deal with the world. I have a good mind, a simple mind, a straight-minded character, a straight talk, a quick handle, and no chance for people to gossip about corruption and bribery. So over the years, I have been straight-minded, the public praise among some employees is also quite good. Based on this, I, a party worker, can be proud of myself in the dense haze working environment. Over the years, let alone the members of the company’s leadership team earn a lot more than I earn money, and all aspects are more economical than me, that is, those middle-level cadres in the company who come to work and have real power, the money I earn every month is much more than my salary. To be honest, sometimes I think about it and feel very upset. I just think about it. The salary and bonus paid by the team members of the company are almost the same as mine, why do they dare to wear brand-name clothes openly, wear gold watches, buy a car, buy a house and make a fortune? What’s the matter! But I calmed down and thought about it. When I was wandering around, I figured it out again. My head didn’t hurt any more. If it hurt, it didn’t work. If it was general, wouldn’t it hurt. For a real person like me who can be shot on the ground, it is a good thing to clean his hands and feet. No greed, no occupation, down-to-earth, do some work in a cool manner, will not cause trouble to yourself at any time, even if the police whistle on the road at midnight is so loud, I will still sleep soundly in the Peach Blossom garden and have beautiful dreams. What is worse and weaker than this kind of small life! In today’s society, in a company with chaotic management, we can see that we encounter some unfair and unreasonable things, even if we clearly know that we have suffered a big loss and our heart is unbalanced, we should also try our best to restrain our emotions and learn to balance our mentality. Otherwise, it is hard to do your own work and live a hard life. Besides, the various gray incomes of those kinds and categories are the things that I am not ashamed of in my life. To put it bluntly, be a pure person, do things cleanly, be quiet in your heart, and live comfortably. My wife every month open a thousand children ba bai wages, every month I can collar a 1000 or 2000, holidays when bring some bonus, still could afford kids through college. Although the family doesn’t have a penny of deposit and lives a tight life every month, they don’t have to worry about eating, drinking and wearing every day. They live a smooth and warm life. Our house is an old-fashioned one built more than 20 years ago, which makes people look not so good from the appearance. But indoor water, electricity, heating, gas, closed circuit are complete, daily life is quite convenient. In addition, there is another biggest advantage, which is that it is very close to our company. You can walk into my office within three minutes. The wind can’t blow, the rain can’t rain, and the sun can’t shine for years, I have enjoyed myself in these years. Although our house is a little old, it is quite quiet in a single house, and the interior decoration is simple and elegant, which is quite in line with my taste, especially my ecological fish tank, there are tropical artificial waters all the year round. Colorful immortals, torches and blue robes play among the green aquatic plants and majestic rocks. They show their elegant demeanour and make people relaxed and happy. Over the past few years, after dinner every night, I like to sit on the sofa tasting green tea, smoking cigarettes and watching those tropical fish that have been raised a little bit spiritually in the ecological fish tank leisurely for a while, I often have imagination in my mind and make some wonderful dreams with my eyes open. During work, I read idle books, read newspapers, practice calligraphy, write blogs, chat with bloggers, and do something every day. Colleagues came and friends arrived. They chatted with each other in the vast sky. When they got excited, they went to the hotel to have a few glasses of wine and fainted. Life is free, work is free, what else do you want! If I am not satisfied any more, that kind and generous Buddha will be angry with me. Today, I was in a good mood. No one came to the office to talk with me. So I turned on the computer and knocked on the keyboard with both hands, talking nonsense with myself. It’s good to talk nonsense with yourself when you are idle and bored. After the article was finished, I sat quietly in front of the computer and read this little thing just released several times silently. The more I read it, the cooler my heart became. After a while, I felt cold all over my body. Hey hey! My God! How can my thoughts be so vulgar? How could it fall into this spiritual situation? Is this person still Ji Cheng? Where are his party spirit, his ideal, his pursuit and his lofty sentiments? Like (prose editor: Ke Er) the snow in spring

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