Now

Life seemed to lose all the taste suddenly, and looting materials seemed to grab a lot of salt and put it into mouth to make up for the vacancy of taste. If you don’t feel satisfied, you have to grasp more and kill those sensitive and tiny tentacles on your tongue. Therefore, I have left this pair of flesh. It takes more time to touch and roll. In those days when I shrank my clothes and ate tightly, I thought that if I could buy a small house, the House would get warm, take a hot bath, sit naked on the sofa, and put on a fluffy blanket, maybe a lifetime wish is enough. Later I bought the house, which is bigger than I imagined. I would not feel cold even if I was naked without a blanket. But I have never sat naked on the sofa. I still feel unhappy. I have traveled to more than half of the cities. I can eat, sleep, play, and then stay in the empty house. I don’t want to go anywhere. I used to describe myself as a drinker, drinking from a street stall to a magnificent hall, and finding that loving wine was just a stunt like claiming to love women when I was young. Most of the men around me are not happy like me, but they still have one love, that is, those who love women. But I can’t love those sitting beside me with strong face. Love is in memory. If you choose decadence, you have to be decadent and have a peaceful mind. Someone once said this to me. When there is no need to worry about material, there is decadent capital, so decadence occupies the whole life. Fat life, fat liver, fat thinking and fat erotic. How expensive the cleansing products are, you can’t clean the grease on your face and the sticky sleep. The buildings, viaducts and women’s bodies in the eyes are all like two fat meat in their belly, which are swollen, soft and dirty. No more narcissistic thoughts. I even started to hate myself. What do you expect him to fall in love with a person who can’t even love him? We can only pick the branches and leaves of those cassia trees, weave them into grass coats, weave them into Garland, wear them on our bodies and heads, to gain people’s love and their own love. Even if everyone pretends to love you because of loving your Cassia clothes, you still can’t convince yourself to love yourself. Your heart is hard and empty. You said, hardness is because of the baptism of common affairs, emptiness is because of the people who left, taking everything away. For a long time, I am no longer willing to travel. Because there is no big difference between cities in the world. For a long time, I am no longer willing to fall in love. Because there is no big difference between women in the world. If there is still a place to go, it is to return to hometown. But as you know, hometown is just like first love, which can never be returned in the whole life. Like (prose editor: drops of ink become wounds) the snow in spring

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