I am

There are countless friends with floating students, among which there are also some deviants and unruly people. Naturally, there will be a few different from ordinary people. One day, after hearing his story told by a close friend, he sighed a lot because of many sighs, and because he was a comrade, so he wrote down this article and gave it to him. Thee. Most of the time, my friends asked me what kind of person you are, and I didn’t know how to answer it. After thinking for many days, I was even confused. I didn’t know this was my reason? It is also the reason of the circle. Every time, when you see someone riding a cool motorcycle in the bustling street, you will always imagine that there will be such a person who will ride such a cool motorcycle, take yourself for a ride. With the warm wind blowing towards me, I either held him in my waist or gently put my side face on his back, as if I could still hear his heartbeat through the sweat-smelling clothes and thick muscles. Although I have never met this motorcycle, this person, this scene, this feeling, every time I see someone Shen Qin in such a scene, I always envy him. Every time, or in the restaurant, or in the mall, or even in the street, when you see a sweet couple, you will always stay quietly for a while. Envy, of course, there will be jealousy. I don’t know where my partner is left? Is it really drunk eyes to see others against each other? I secretly played tears of lovesickness in no one’s place. Once in a while, after experiencing a gathering of friends, I always want to be alone quietly and walk quietly on the street, and there will always be wind, stirring a few wisps of hair, giving birth to the heart of the world of mortals in front of me. At this time, I would suddenly think of a lot of things. I have been in the circle for so long. Sometimes I like others and sometimes I am liked by others. No matter what factors are, I always miss them. What a terrible word to miss. Some people said they liked me, and I believed it. Some people said they waited for me, and I also believed it. But in the end, there was always nothing wrong with it. When thinking about the person you missed, sadness suddenly came up. Would a person’s eyes never stay in one place for too long? Is this circle always missing? When I met you, happiness came, but I found it was too late. Sometimes, I feel very strange. Obviously there are many novel things to replace the old ones I am using, but I can’t give up. I always feel that if I give up, I lost the key to open the memory. So most of the time, my friends always say that your belt is ugly to play truant, and I always laugh it off. What can I do? I just like it. Even the more they say, the more I like it. I won’t feel ashamed if I can stick to a thing for ten years or even longer. Instead, I will feel proud. Maybe when I was a child, my mother always asked me to store the books I had learned in case I didn’t understand them. When I forgot, I took them out and read them again. So as time passed, I formed this habit. But sometimes it’s not. I bought it by myself, and I won’t pay much attention to how expensive it is, but others give it as a gift, just like the belt, It was given by a classmate when he was a child, and the bag used now was given by an old friend of Banjing Daoguo. The Avalokitesvara who was wearing it was going to Shengshui Temple in Sichuan that year to talk about scriptures and Taoism with an eminent monk, after helping tourists guide and dispel doubts, an eminent monk gave it. I remember and carry all these things. Sometimes when I think about these things, I will give birth to my yearning for life, walk in different places, meet different people and play different stories. But I am not a persistent perseverance, and I can live with memories all the time. Sometimes I will naturally be confused by my current state of mind. Occasionally, for a few days, I don’t know what the reason is. My persistent persistence, which I have been determined, collapsed. Desire defeated reason and principle under the help of loneliness, I suddenly want to find someone to date. I don’t know if everyone is the same as me? On one hand, it was my own reason; On the other hand, my inner desire was stirring. Knowing that I hated it most, I still did it. Sometimes friends around me will persuade me that proper dating is to release Depressed emotions, and sometimes they will persuade me that you have no partner, even if you make an appointment, it is nothing, it’s not someone who carries it. I’m sorry. But after these days, my heart calmed down. I didn’t feel ashamed, but I just felt ashamed. I suddenly found that I was so dirty? If you do something that you are unwilling to do, it is not release, it is sinking, it is not the world of mortals, it is the sea of desire. In the past, I always cared about others’ opinions on myself. Although I went to the Riverside for several times, it was because of my novel admiration, and I never dreamed of being taken away or taken away at that time. But there will always be some people calling you a celebrity, and there will always be some people passing on the original things without any wind or shadow vividly. Maybe he was so angry that he always gritted his teeth and had to have a verbal battle. Finally, he was stigmatized. Now think about it, which kind of person I am will not change because of others’ words. If my friends believe the rumor, then such friends will not be friends, and I am will be arrogant, it is not profligate and unruly. In the past, someone always asked me, what do you like? What type? I always say that I am not fat, it is good to be pleasing to the eye, and I always feel that my requirements are very plain. Now think about it, it is better to list the rules directly and put them in front of you one by one. This circle seems to be that the more there is no requirement, the more unpredictable it is. It is good to tell the requirements of height and weight. At least someone will sit down accordingly. Once, my friend asked me, who do you want most in the past few years? Who can’t let you go? I was stunned. Someone waited for me to get off work silently for a long time, but finally I missed it because of my reason. I missed him. There was a man who showed the most sincere care when he met for the first time. I missed him. Although someone has never seen it, he will pay attention to every dynamic of me. I am complacent, He would give praise, I was unhappy, and he would call to greet him. Although I had never seen him before, I missed him too. There was a man who took me as a bosom friend shortly after we met him. When he fell in love, he told me that he was so sad and cried bitterly on my shoulder. I missed him for this kind of love. There was a man who treated me as a friend when I was in poverty and treated me twice. He asked me to find him from a long distance and led me to have a haircut and meal. He had no money, I am willing to be friends with you. I miss him. There was a man who came by car for more than an hour when I couldn’t do it, just to go downstairs to buy food for me. Although he was not a lover, he could be such a person, I miss him. When I think of the past, I am sad and sad, but when I face the questions from my friends, I still endured my tears and forced a smile to say that there was no one who had no special thought and no one who could not let go. Once at night, I was sleeping soundly when a woman called her and said that someone had confessed to her, I asked if I should accept it. I didn’t answer her, but asked her if he was your favorite person? I was silent for a long time, and after a long time, two words came from the other end of the phone. In the following hour, she told me his favorite person. For various reasons, she hurt the other person’s heart and passed by like that. I comforted her for a long time before she stopped her tears. After hanging up the phone, I tossed and turned, and couldn’t sleep. Thinking of a lot of things, I always complain about how tricky and weird people who don’t accept me, even thinking that their sincerity has been trampled by them. But I forget that those who like me are also trampled by me? Just because I didn’t feel for them, I tried my best to avoid them. Without the courage and courage, I didn’t confess frankly, but it hurt others’ hearts, even if I finally turned back, you deserve to be sad by others, and you can’t blame others. Sincerity is the most respectable thing. There are many sincerity in this circle, but you and I are too soft and tactful, and lack of straightforwardness and forthright. We both use the wrong place, the wrong expression of love also made the other party wrong, which hurt each other’s hearts. In fact, it doesn’t matter whether you like it or not. What matters is to confess. If you like it, tell him. If you don’t like it, tell him more. I often wonder whether the love between men and women is really like a ghost? It only appears in the stories and legends, but the authentic works have never been seen. Isn’t the love between men more slim? It is like a miracle. I always feel that it exists, but I have never seen it with my own eyes. I often think like this. Finding friends is like fishing. Only when you get the bait can you fish on the hook. If you want to get a sincere person, you must use the sincerity to make the bait. How can others treat you sincerely with a heart of never being tired of playing and never rejecting others? I often think like this, even if I can’t meet true love, I will not rashly assert that there is no true love among comrades, and I will not deny his existence. Therefore, whenever those young men in the group ask if there is true love? I always tell them there must be, but I haven’t met them yet. Because I was afraid that I didn’t meet it, I strongly advocated that it didn’t exist, which gave the later generations despair and cut off their thoughts. I often fantasize: When I go out to take the train, it can be two people. I can’t fall asleep, chat with each other, feel sleepy, and have a rest with my arms. When will the sun through the window screen shine on two people at the same time when they wake up in the morning? I think that is the scenery of heaven and Thailand. When can we have a walk together after dinner? There is a man who is like a buddy in someone’s place, talking happily and talking nonsense about Qian Kun. There is no one in the forest path, and you can secretly hook your little finger, snuggle up and hum the melody that is familiar with each other. When will someone prepare a meal for himself? Or make a meal by yourself and wait for that person to come back, and infiltrate love into the daily necessities. When will someone hold my hand and tell his friend that I am his partner? That is not my vanity, but the testimony of love. When will you lose a kind of emotional envy, no longer envy others, but be envied by others. I am such a person, a simple person, like many people, I am waiting for happiness. When you were soft and timid, I was hiding and waiting for his arrival. When the passion is high, I will also take the initiative to attack in one step. I have always believed that as long as I stick to it, there will be happiness. If I sit down on loneliness, I will regain the noise and sorrow. Naturally, I will see happiness, taste bitterness, and finally feel bitter. Flowers bloom and fade, gathering and parting are always unsatisfactory and will never be changed. But as long as we use our sincerity and do our best in personnel, the rest will depend on the people on the white clouds. It’s like, I planted fruit, but it doesn’t bloom but not by me. There must be happiness among comrades, and it must be not far from us, just like the distance between spring and us, through a peach blossom. Like (prose editor: drops of ink become wounds) the snow in spring

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