Father

My father has changed completely under the torture and destruction of illness for many years. I can’t see any shadow of his health in the past. What makes him more sad and scared is that his temperament has become more and more sensitive and fragile; become more and more irritable, more and more arrogant; Become more and more selfish, more and more ignorant; Become unreasonable, absurd, and even incredible. Sometimes I think that all the changes of my father may come from the hysterical despair in his heart. Feeling all the changes of my father, as my son, I really want to give him some encouragement and comfort. I really want to think about it! However, any persuasive language seemed so pale in front of him. At the same time, I found that any language could make him overreact, and I was so scared! Therefore, in front of my father, I could only be fearful and careful. With my back to my father, I could only cry and feel sad secretly. Gradually, I learned to deal with it with silence. However, this kind of silence made me more guilty and heartbroken these days around my father. Although I found that he had many mistakes, especially the psychology has been severely distorted, but I have no choice but to tolerate and accommodate blindly. I am unwilling and unwilling to blame him. I can only pray devoutly for my poor and pathetic father in my heart over and over again, hoping that one day a miracle will appear. In the past two years, my father’s body has become increasingly stiff. He couldn’t take care of himself, so he had to rely on others for his daily life, and the burden of taking care of his daily life naturally fell on my mother’s thin shoulder. Father’s body could not move for a long time, nor could he keep a posture for a long time. Therefore, there should be someone waiting by his side all the time. My mother was so busy for him all day that she wanted to help him with activities, help him with convenience and so on. Sometimes, my mother scores several times to finish a meal, and she has to take care of her father from time to time! After the meal is finished, I have to feed my father one mouthful of food. In the evening, it will be even harder. My father’s turning over on that channel at night and Xiao Xie often made my mother sleepless all night. For example, it was just not easy to turn him to the left. Before mother lay down and covered the quilt hot, she shouted to turn him over again. However, in these processes, although my mother took pains and tried her best, sometimes she still got scolded by my father. Because, in my father’s opinion, you should be on call! Even one minute can’t be delayed! In this regard, my father once tried to explain it. He said that he could not help calling it, so he hoped that the faster the better! In this regard, I can understand father. However, every time, especially when calling at night, it is normal for my mother to hesitate a little, but she will be scolded as long as she is a little hesitant, it seems that father always only considers himself but never considers mother’s feelings at this point. For this reason, my mother is often scolded for being wronged alone and sad alone. I deeply understand my mother, and often feel sorry for her, but I hate myself for being incompetent. Facing all this, I can only watch my mother suffer with my father. As a man, as a son, the pain that he can do nothing to face the sufferings of his own parents is heart-wrenching and desperate! In fact, in terms of the current situation and family situation, I am cannot and cannot take care of my father for a long time, although this is my duty as a son. Because in this family, I am the only healthy person who has not lost the ability to work. I will try my best to ensure that my family have food every day! Even if three meals a day are coarse tea and light rice, as long as you can fill your stomach. Because no matter how hard the days are, they will always go on. My mother is a very kind housewife. Her kindness can be said to come from her nature. However, the kind of good attitude that mother can’t reach others comes from the Buddhism that she has believed in for many years. In her mother’s heart, everything she encountered came from the cause and effect of her previous life, and what she suffered was the karma brought by her previous life, so she faced so many sufferings, only with so many grievances can she bear it silently, try her best and never complain or regret. I am deeply grateful to my mother. She has paid too much for this family and suffered too much for her son! However, facing all the things my mother did, what could my son do for my mother? Ah, my poor mother! In daily life, although relatives and friends all say that my mother is too bitter and tired, who can really realize the exact extent of that kind of bitter and tired? What is the difference between the hardship of imagination and reality? Last night, after taking care of my father, I truly understood the hardship, tiredness and sins my mother had suffered over the years! Although my father was a little unaccustomed to my care and tried his best to endure less trouble, I still felt a little overwhelmed afterwards, really! I was reluctant to help him turn over frequently in the middle of the night. Sometimes I almost tried my best to move my father’s stiff body. I can’t imagine how my mother did it for such a long time and how she survived it. How long can you sleep after getting up at least twenty times a night? I can’t believe how my mother, a thin woman, insisted on all this? Although I feel the same as my mother’s suffering, what can I do for her? My self-accusation for thousands of times cannot replace the little sin my mother suffered! Ah, my poor mother, my son is not filial! I am sorry for this family, father, and you! Now it seems that there is no possibility for father’s illness to be cured, mother’s sin seems to have no end, and son’s pain will be endless. All this is a kind of helplessness and suffering. There is nothing I can do about it! Perhaps, mother’s sin will end when father’s life comes to an end. But my son’s pain will become a permanent pain! QQ1637111859 like (prose editor: indifferent) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. 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