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At this time, I didn’t know why, my heart was so painful that I couldn’t breathe, and my tears turned around in my eyes unwillingly! The emptiness that never existed in my heart was a pain that could not be expressed in words. Maybe it is because I am too melodramatic, or it is because I have a sentimental heart! I once thought that time would be a good medicine to smooth the wounds left by those years! It can dilute memory; You can forget many people or things, and you can forget all happy or unhappy things in the long gone time. But in the end, what I want to forget is still so clear! Closing my eyes, it was so close but so real. It seemed that I could still hear the wind of yesterday and smell the fragrance emitted when the flowers were in full bloom. When I opened my eyes, I found that everything had already been so far away. Maybe it was no longer my memory at all, and everything was blurred. I don’t want to recall the past, just to forget it! But I always remember it inadvertently. Four years, it should be said to be a very long time, it red cherry, green plantain. For a long time, I have been deceiving myself and others, hoping that one day I will go back to the past! Perhaps those injuries that cannot be told are the most painful! Because we can only put it quietly in the bottom of our heart, so that we can not mention the past! Later, I gradually got used to silence, used to disguise my inner pain in front of the crowd, and didn’t let my heart stir any more! Hide everything with indifference, or upset, or joy! Just because I am afraid of hurt, I am afraid that yesterday will reappear! If you understand me, why do I worry? If you don’t understand me, what should I ask?, in fact, I don’t have such arrogance and confidence. Instead, I have such unspeakable self-abasement in my heart! What I have always wanted is just a simple and simple friendship, an ordinary life journey. I don’t expect any great achievements, but I just expect to join hands with ER in this ordinary life, choose a city die! Walk around the world in mutual help. Maybe this world is just like what I said when chatting with a friend: not all things will come to an end as long as you stick to them! Because what you care about may be just a careless move in others’ eyes! Maybe others just say it casually, don’t worry too much about what others say! Maybe she is right because she is too stupid! But I really want to say to her, if I don’t care about people, how can I remember the casual words in my heart? Most of the time, maybe you shouldn’t be too serious. If you are serious, you have already lost everything and finally lost your heart. Sometimes, I would shake my head and smile bitterly, laughing at my innocence and stupidity, and more often I would laugh at my helplessness for all this! Maybe this is the so-called destiny that everyone should have! I can only say that my destiny is too bad! All the remaining courage about love has been gradually exhausted. Facing everything, we can only avoid to reduce the pain in our heart, making everything seem not to care so much! In fact, who will really understand? Want to love, but dare not love, want to stay, but dare not stay! This is the truest helplessness in my heart. In fact, there has been a biggest question lingering in my heart for a long time, but I haven’t figured it out! Praying for Buddha, Buddha is very helpless! I once asked Buddha devoutly: to send a gift to the person I love, I just have a simple idea to surprise her. I can see happiness, is this also wrong? However, no matter how I ask, Buddha has been silent. It seems that I am really wrong. Is my idea too simple or the world too complicated? Some things, wrong, is a lifetime, irreversible! In fact, when chatting with a friend, I think what she said is right; I don’t know what you used to be like, maybe your deep understanding makes you become like this, but you have to remember that if a girl likes you, she won’t let you buy it for her. She doesn’t want anything. As long as you are around, you will be very happy and satisfied. However, I want to say: is it wrong that I just want to surprise a person who likes it, and that’s all? Maybe I really failed because I didn’t understand each other’s thoughts all the time. Maybe everything is wrong. I am a person who doesn’t know how to love! I think love is serious; It is to do everything to make the other party happy and fast! It turns out that I have always been wrong! Alas! Finally, I found that this idea is too simple! Wrong! Wrong! Wrong! Like (prose editor: indifferent) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. 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