Chaos

I couldn’t help shivering when the cool breeze blew. In fact, there is bright and hot sunshine, but for a person whose heart is already cold, even if the whole person is thrown into the vast sea of fire, he will not feel any warmth. I was like walking into the polar region. There was no difference between east, west, north and south. I stood there and looked around. The white world was full of cold air deep in my heart. The high ice edge was swaying in the water, but I was swaying in the snow. I tried my best to find the direction I wanted to go. I tried many times, but I found that it was in vain. I knew that I would be trapped here and never walk out. I shouted and struggled. I didn’t want to die miserably in this extremely evil world. No one can save me, nor can I save myself. Countless promises are like what others say that have nothing to do with me, and all the good things have become memories of the past. The endless longing was like a mirage after the rain. After the sunshine broke through the clouds, everything disappeared. I began to feel confused, at a loss, and didn’t have the courage to continue panting. It was like a bottomless hole falling down. My body was suspended and falling down all the time. Every second, my nerves were tense. Every second, I didn’t know what would happen next second. Fear, fear of danger, no hope. This is a kind of torture, which is even more pleasant than a broken head. I still remember that I was in my 20th youth, but in my life, I could not see a little youth. The tragedy that I created for myself, I bet with fate, and I bet all my life’s hopes. Nowadays, no one can blame for the hysterical pain. They are all asking for it on their own. The only blame is that they are not smart enough. They lose to being serious, and lose to their own practice and corruption. I am not qualified to say how unfortunate I am, let alone my miserable face. Don’t want to see dazzling light, dare not look at me in the plane mirror, embarrassed appearance, no bloody face, scattered fluffy long hair, ragged clothes, dead fish-like eyes shot everywhere. I don’t know whether I am admire others’ happiness or beg others’ sympathy and pity for me. I have never counted how many holes there are in my heart. I hope that after leaving me, I just want to be free. Yes, I have given what I can give to the so-called hope. If it leaves, can I be free… tired, too tired to shout tired, tired, too tired to say anything, it doesn’t matter. Close your eyes habitually, but don’t want to open them habitually any more. I was afraid to see the reality that hurt me all over. I was afraid that the light which was so strong that there was nothing to stop could blind my only healthy and visible eyes. After what happened, I was deaf and couldn’t hear anything. I was lame and couldn’t walk any way. I only had those eyes that could be seen in the past, but I closed it and didn’t want to open it any more. I am a sinner, I am guilty. I lost nothing but nothing. What a big sin it was. I want to say sorry to myself, girl, you are wronged. Stunned, stunned, out of my mind. Two decades of life, two decades of life trajectory. In the second decade, it is still far from the end. I must forget all the past and continue to go on. Girl, no matter how painful, hurt or prickly it is, let it be the past and the past. The road is still long, the dream is still far away, and you can cherish it. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

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When I was in high school, I looked forward to the life in college, thinking that I could not face boring textbooks all day long and the days accompanied by exercises every day in college. I really want to relax, free, without any constraints. When I was in college, it was really as cool as I thought. I didn’t have much schoolwork. In the hardest time, I only needed a few days before the final exam to get 60 points. Long live 60 minutes, but a classic in the university campus. Four years have passed. There is no need to live a hard life every day, but to find things as much as possible and figure out how to live. Before that, there was no way to live. Every day is the 3.1-line life in dormitories, classrooms and canteens. Learning has always been a constant theme, and entering university has always been an important goal. Some people have been serious, some people have lived day by day, and some people have been confused. After all, after four years, most people still need to enter the society and go to work. When it comes to books, there is little hatred. After entering the society, there are few majors involved in the university. Many things are almost new, which is equivalent to starting from a new beginning. Those 60-star Long Live lies that say you can relax as much as you like after college can be broken. Now I have a lot of feelings. In college, I lived a full life with considerable restraint, which was not so much as lingering in Internet cafes all day long. I still read some books and knew what to learn. But I still feel that I have not learned enough and I am not good enough. After work, many things still start from scratch. In addition to self-study of some computer knowledge in universities, which is of great use, the knowledge in other textbooks is hardly used. In a few years, it has been almost forgotten. In this way, the textbooks in the university are really wasted. Some things are like this, not following the development of my imagination, I have to make changes. Everyone wants to live a happy and leisurely life, without having to worry about this or that. This kind of life may only exist in heaven and earth. If you want to survive, you must use your brain to make money. Think about eating every day. When you don’t know how to make money, you are raised by your family. When you become independent, you can work and earn money to support your family. By this time, I have become a part of family income, and even become a pillar. When my parents retire, they need to support themselves. If they get married, it will be another responsibility for their wives and children. Even if you want to be lazy, it is just like this. A job is not only the guarantee of survival, but also a layer of responsibility behind it. Yours, not only yours, but also your family. There are many situations to consider when doing things, so as to avoid more unpleasant things. After working for four years, I didn’t feel that one day was really relaxing. Working overtime is not short. Sometimes I feel that I haven’t had weekends for a long time. Looking at computers and materials all day long, you will be dazzled when you read more data. The materials are piled up into hills, as if going back to the class of senior three, reviewing day and night, just like that kind of feeling. If you work overtime, you will always have some ideas. What I think most is the day when I don’t have to work overtime. I even thought about changing a job, so I don’t have to work overtime all day long. But I couldn’t make up my mind and worried about finding a job that was not as good as now, wouldn’t it be a trouble for myself. It is also a temporary idea. How many people can accurately judge the future. But one thing is that when you are young, you will bear more hardships, work more, and learn more. There is always nothing wrong. If you want to live a good life, you must work hard and accumulate more capital. Life is not easy for everyone. Youth is the capital. The future success is also accumulated at this time. When you are old and weak, how much energy will be volatile if you work hard. Eat more bitter, hard, don’t care. After that, I can’t even regret it. In the future, looking back, you will thank yourself once. There is no problem if I can think of it. I have experienced numerous exams since I was a child, and I have also come through like this. No matter how difficult it is, it will be regarded as an exam. Imagine how you used to sit in the examination room, and how easy it will be after completing the exam. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…