Camphor

Is the spring wind like scissors in February? During the Spring Festival, the warm spring breeze is really like sharp scissors, cutting the leaves of the fragrant tree in front of the door one by one. You can see that spring breeze spread across the country, which was soft and warm, making people feel comfortable. But in front of the House, the tall leaves were shaking, and after the rustle, the leaves were flying down one after another, it is as beautiful as rain or floc, spectacular but melancholy. Just for a long time, the courtyard was covered with a thick layer of fallen leaves. Looking at the thick residual leaves on the ground, the confusion of seasons appeared in my mind. I always thought it was the coming of autumn, which made people have lingering sorrow. The camphora trees are evergreen all the year round, but they also have fallen leaves. However, the leaves of camphora do not drift in bleak autumn or cold and windy winter. In the spring of every year, the leaves on the trees begin to fall when the Spring is warm and the airflow is like summer. Just as the warm current comes quickly, it also falls quickly. Once the wind passes, it will be like the rain of leaves, and a dynamic and beautiful landscape will be formed when the rustle sounds. Every time I look at my heart, it will sink with the leaves, fluttering and empty, with the melancholy of yellow leaves fluttering in autumn, the pain of separation, and the uncontrollable helplessness of parting. Whether I just belong to the leaf on the tree, just a gentle gust of wind will float to a distant place, quietly without dependence, and quietly without restraint, flying freely in the vast space, take a most lonely trip, and then on a windless day, choose a final destination to last forever. Maybe everything is just that I have too much sentimental feelings, all of which have nothing to do with fallen leaves, because the fallen leaves of the camphora tree are just a replacement of the old and the new. After the spring breeze and rain every year, buds like flower buds grow one by one at the end of the branches. This flower bud contains new and tender leaves, and small flowers as thin as stars are also among the tender leaves. When the warm spring breeze passes through the tender leaves and fine flowers, the buds will be poked out at the same time. At the moment when the incense tree was once again growing new branches, the old leaves also completed its mission. When facing the wind, they went away one after another, looking for the next home belonging to themselves, since then, the camphora tree has completed a beautiful transformation. The fallen leaves of the camphora tree once a year, each time is about ten days. This year’s defoliation happens during the Spring Festival, and I live at home for more than ten days, every day when I went out, I saw the scene of fallen leaves flying. No matter when the door is opened in the morning or when the probe is watching from the window, a scene like silent autumn seems to evoke the faint sorrow buried in the heart. A piece of floating is a piece of farewell. These departures cannot meet from now on, and that piece of floating yellow leaves have gone through winter, and there is no spring any more. I thought of my mother and grandmother. It was these fallen leaves that made a deep pain burst out in my heart like catalysts. This year, my mother and grandmother left one after another. It was so sudden and hurried that a bustling home became quiet, and there would be a faint pain every time I went back to my hometown. I always thought that time would heal the wound, but after the spring breeze, I found that the pain was never far away. It was just hidden in my heart. Sometimes I really have too much fear for life and life, which makes me unable to face up to life and the world that seems to make me more and more unfamiliar. The vicissitudes of life made me unable to bear the helplessness in my life. It made me realize that the separation in my life was so simple that it made me unprepared and went to another world quietly without saying goodbye. Therefore, the sound of wind and falling leaves will also make me a bird of horror and fall into the abyss of fear. Whether people are also like the weak leaves on the tree. When there is an autumn wind and rain, they will leave quietly. Even if the warm spring breeze can be, the leaves of the fragrant tree will not come to another world silently, there is no reason for all. Or who can escape from death or death, or earlier or later, the one who should come will come eventually. People living in this world always face sunrise and sunset, and always face spring, summer, autumn and winter. The road still needs to go step by step until one day they leave quietly like leaves. Since you have to go on the road, or you don’t need to be afraid, just face it bravely and let it go. Don’t be frivolous and arrogant when you are beautiful, don’t be pessimistic and negative when you are lost, be calm and calm, face life with positive and optimistic attitude, only in this way can you not waste this life. People always have sorrow and frustration. When facing sadness or I can’t calm down, I may still feel pain like a leaf. But I am will not retreat, nor will it be depressed from now on. I believe that after experiencing the pain, I will become stronger and look at life more plainly. Let time fade everything, let all the life and death go, let all the joys and sorrows go with the wind, and then face the rest spring, summer, autumn and winter peacefully. The spring wind in February is like scissors. The warm spring wind cuts off yellow leaves, and the warm spring wind also cuts out sharp green. Looking at the moisture of the spring wind, clusters of thin fragrant Zhang flowers have been exposed to the branches. Among the bright green swaying branches and leaves, the spring birds have already attracted, jumping and circling, singing the light songs of spring. February is a warm and bright season. The warmth of February makes everything spit Green and reborn. The arrival of spring makes the spring here full of birds and flowers. I think the savory tree chooses to be scattered in spring. Everything has nothing to do with sorrow and injury. It just touches my sensitive nerve casually. In fact, spring is still the season when spring is warm and blooming. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. 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Then

Everything in the world has its own survival rules. People live for a lifetime, and there are also people’s survival rules, which is often said to be worldly wisdom. Worldly Wisdom is the conventional behavior rules accumulated in our daily life. I remember that when I was in high school, I saw a sentence in “Zengguang Xianwen”, which was like a thin piece of paper, and the world was like a new chess game. There was another sentence in that book, which was poor in the downtown, no one asked, it is said that these words are the most appropriate summary of the social situation of thousands of years of feudal society. I also remember a sentence in Cao Xueqin’s novel A Dream of Red Mansions, one of the four classical literary masterpieces: the world is full of knowledge, and the cultivation of human feelings is an article. It is also often heard that the current society is really indifferent and the world is hot and cold. I often hear my mother say: people flatter the rich, and the dog bites the basket. At that time, I really didn’t understand the profound meaning of these words. What’s more, I don’t understand what people say about the world. I don’t understand that people should follow some living rules and some hidden rules when they live in the world. I don’t know things thoroughly, and I don’t understand the truth of life. China is a country that values human feelings. Yu Dafu has a famous saying: see the world in a grain of sand, and say human feelings in half a flower. It is said that human feelings are often reflected in the details of life. Human relationship is the survival relationship between people. It is a hidden rule that people form a relationship network through the transmission of interests. There is an old saying that the kindness of receiving water must be reported by the spring. If others are kind to you, you should keep it in mind forever, and you owe others a favor. In this case, you have to remember to repay others sooner or later. In our daily life, we get in touch with human feelings every day. Human relationship is the friendship built in daily life. Classmates or friends who haven’t seen each other for a long time meet each other unexpectedly and have to communicate with each other; Students’ sons or daughters want to get married or have wedding noodles; Friends’ relatives are sick, you are going to visit; If you have something to do with your friends or relatives, you should also go to help. In this way, others will come to help you when you have something to do. The relationship between people is maintained through these mutual exchanges in daily life. If you won’t do a favor, do not know reciprocity. You are considered not to be a man. Gradually, relatives and friends will alienate you. People live in the big family of society, so they have to get in touch with many people in their lifetime, not only their relatives or classmates and friends. Besides acquaintances, they also need to contact many strangers, and these strangers will gradually become friends again. If you don’t know how to deal with strangers, you won’t get to know more friends. Because there is no strangeness, there is no familiarity. I really didn’t understand all these favors at that time. There is an old saying that no one in the court is difficult to be an official, He also said that acquaintances are good at doing things, which is human feelings. At that time, because both parents were farmers facing the loess and facing the sky, they would not pull the relationship and enter the back door. As for me, I don’t know anything about the world. In 1988, before graduating from university, I only thought about my cousin (Uncle’s watch) in the Municipal Personnel Bureau, so I didn’t care much about how to distribute after graduation. You can go to any school to teach. (I studied in Chinese department of Xuchang Teachers College) Moreover, there are also uncle and parents. Therefore, I seldom go to my cousin’s place to sit and have a heart-to-heart talk. I didn’t expect that my cousin was not a close relative after all. (in addition, my aunt passed away that year.) I didn’t take my business to heart at all. Although my uncle scolded my cousin for several times and said that he was not an ordinary relative, my cousin still refused to help. Finally, it was their parents who entrusted the relationship with their elders in the village of the District Agricultural Commission that they entered a subordinate store of the supply and marketing cooperative in Wei du district and stood at the counter for five years. Finally, my brother helped me to transfer to the municipal construction company, and because of the restructuring of the company, I became a migrant worker with unstable income and unguaranteed salary. Now think about it, in addition to their own morality is not qualified, but also blame yourself for not knowing human feelings in those years. After graduating from college, I also wanted to go to the county, and I could be assigned to any school. But my father said a word: people all want to run from the county to the city, but you want to run from the city to the county. You go to the county, but when you want to go back to the city, I have no way to run for you. Later, I took the file to Weidu district. Thought the city works with policy, to Wei du district but changed. Students who graduated from normal colleges are not allowed to go to schools and public institutions, and we are allowed to find enterprises by ourselves. On the first day when I went to the bureau to report for duty, it was the first time that I walked into the gate of Weidu district government, parking and locking in the east of the office building. Go north along the steps, turn right, and knock on the door of the Bureau office. I was greeted by Chen MOU, a middle-aged man in his thirties, medium and rich. At that time, he was sitting on a grand chair against the wall in the East, looking down at a book on the desk. The office is not big, two desks are placed back to back in the south near the window, and several chairs are placed in the north and west. Seeing me approaching, he closed the book. It was the best-selling Lady chateilai’s lover published by the famous British writer D.H Lawrence in 1986 by Hunan People’s Publishing House. After I explained my purpose, he looked at my file and asked me casually: are you from Jian Zhuang? Do you know the head of your village? This question stopped me. Because I am not at home at school all day long, I have less time to contact with people in the village. I am not all familiar with a production team. I really don’t know how long he said. So I said: I don’t know yet. I didn’t know what to say, and didn’t pay attention to his expression after I said this sentence. Later, he asked me some information and said to me: our bureau will study your business again, and you will come again next week. At that time, I really didn’t understand the meaning of research he said. I didn’t say these things to my parents when I came back that day. Later, I realized that the leader he said was an elder in my village. (I should call him uncle, he and my eldest uncle are still relatives) the eldest uncle’s home is only away from our home, but it is not a production team with me. After many years, I realized that I really didn’t understand the worldly wisdom at that time. If I said immediately that day: he is my uncle. Or after I came back that day, I told my parents about these things. My parents would definitely go to my eldest uncle’s house. After getting closer to him, my job would definitely not be like this. If it is now, even if it doesn’t matter, I will try to pull the relationship. During the one or two years after taking part in the work, my classmates also got married one after another. During this period, some classmates also invited me to attend their wedding. However, at that time, the benefits of my unit were not good, and I couldn’t afford the salary all the year round. Go, you can’t take the gift if there is less, and there is no more gift. Moreover, I felt self-abased at that time and felt that my work unit was not as good as other classmates. Besides, the wedding day of a female classmate happened to be my father’s birthday. Therefore, several classmates also invited me to get married, and I didn’t go to congratulate. Now, when I was young, I didn’t attend a classmate’s wedding, which became my lifelong regret. Later, I realized how I am didn’t understand human feelings at that time. At the beginning of 1990, I went to ask my college classmates to do something. The next day, my college classmate went to the company to find me and asked me to go to his place and say something to me. After that, I realized that I wanted to introduce his sister to me and said that I could be transferred to work. At that time, I remembered a passage in Lu Yao’s novella Life, which was what Huang Yaping said about Gao Jialin: if it were not me xxx, you would be xxx. I am really afraid that she will say similar words when she gets angry later. In that way, I always feel that I have my braid pulled by her, and I feel uncomfortable at any time. Therefore, I refused this marriage. Maybe it was Lu Yao’s life that really influenced my life. If I didn’t think so much at that time and became a family with my classmate’s sister, my life might not be like this now. It is not because I regret it now. I just want to say that I really didn’t understand human feelings at that time. Because I don’t understand human feelings and I don’t know how to be worldly-wise, it refutes my classmates’ dignity and certainly influences my relationship with them. Although my classmates have been caring and taking care of me as always for many years. In the following days, even after getting married, I seldom went to the village because of my poor economic condition. But later I realized that it was just like burning incense and worshiping Buddha. What they expressed were their own wishes, and parents could not represent their children themselves. No spring breeze, autumn rain is rare. At that time, I really didn’t understand human feelings. In our country which values human feelings, courtesy and honesty are human feelings, honesty and modesty are human feelings, seven emotions and six desires are human feelings, life communication is human feelings, and pursuing fame and wealth is human feelings, dozens or hundreds of thousands of objects are human feelings, chess, calligraphy, painting, tobacco, wine and tea are human feelings, food, clothing, housing and transportation are human feelings, and gifts, help, borrowing money, emergency and appreciation are all human feelings. If people want to survive, they have to make contact with people who are in the society and make use of human feelings to befriend, Therefore, I have to make use of my classmates and friends’ friends to get along with each other, weave my own network of relationships, and help myself to do such and such things. To survive, one should not only learn to do favor, but also buy favor sometimes. When necessary, one should learn to sell favor; Or give others a favor. People who have always been successful are those who are well-behaved and sophisticated. They can give others a step even if they encounter difficulties; They can give others opportunities to maneuver while adhering to the principles; They can maintain their own position that they will not hurt others’ dignity; when rejecting others’ unreasonable demands, they will be tactful without hurting their feelings; When they do not hinder the overall situation, they will give others opportunities to extend themselves; Under the patience association, let others cooperate with their own positions. Recalling those years when I was young, I didn’t understand human feelings. I gradually learned a lot of truths about being a human being, except that I had sighed disappointedly at that time. In this society full of human feelings, everyone cannot escape from the network of human feelings. The word “human feelings” deserves everyone’s whole life to study and understand. Family affection, friendship, schoolmate love, war friendship and so on, all the friendship of people is maintained by regular contacts. I wish everyone a better understanding of the world. Like (prose editor: drops of ink become wounds) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Cannot

In the evening, my uncle called me and said that something happened to my father. The old couple quarreled a lot at home and fought with each other. My father was so angry that he couldn’t stand it. He asked me to buy quick-acting heart-saving pills and send them to me. My father was always strong and had never heard of heart problems. It was midnight again, and the drugstore was closed. But it was so urgent that I couldn’t ask carefully. I quickly found a friend who was familiar with me and had a history of heart disease to borrow quick-acting heart-saving pills. I ran to my mother’s home with my lover and saw my mother standing aside without saying a word, both my aunt and uncle persuaded and comforted my father. I took out the medicine and asked my aunt to arrange my father to take it. When my father calmed down, he asked for the reason. When he told me the truth, although I had been used to getting along with my parents since I was a child, I was still angry and helpless. It turned out that my father was angry just because of what my mother said casually while watching TV. So my father used to slap his mother, and at this time my mother was not as weak as when she was young, he picked up the slippers at his feet and threw them at his father. His father was stunned by the slippers hitting him. His heart beat abnormally immediately, not because of the pain of being hit by the slippers, but because of his mother’s actions, he was severely frightened, he covered his heart and squatted on the ground, and no longer continued to punch his mother. My mother was also scared, so she called my uncle and them immediately. After we all arrived, my father said angrily: how dare she fight back and hit me! Now my parents are both over 60 years old. Every time I tell them about this past event more than ten years ago, my father is still angry, but his spirit is obviously lost; My mother is very proud of her feat, because that night, all of our relatives didn’t sympathize with my father because he was beaten, let alone criticize my mother. Since then, father’s irritable character has gradually calmed down, and his respect for mother has increased day by day. They no longer quarrel, scold and fight because of poverty, tiredness and trivial things as they did when they were young. My parents are very simple and hardworking farmers. My father has a little culture and has been doing financial work in rural enterprises all the time, but he still needs to cultivate more than a dozen mu of land in his family, heavy work made him irritable. His mother was hardworking, frugal, tolerant and kind, inheriting the traditional virtues of Chinese women. The memory of his father when he was young was always tiny or even unknown, she lost her temper to her mother and even made fists. Most of the time, her mother always wiped her tears and said something irrelevant to her neighbor who came to inquire, not to mention her father’s fault, but the years changed year after year, there is almost no obvious change in our family’s life. The contradiction between parents is their character, but the concept is unprecedentedly consistent. No matter how hard or poor the family is, the reading of our sister, brother and sister is never delayed. His father’s bad temper didn’t mean his good moral character. He was smart, diligent and dedicated. He worked well in the unit and loved learning. He became a self-taught accountant. My mother is a rural woman who combines traditional virtues. Our three children finished their studies in different places with excellent performance in their quarrels, became successful and married, and left them one by one to form their own families. I am the eldest daughter of the family, she gradually stood beside her mother when she was a teenager to defend her, resolutely protesting her father’s use of force against her mother. For this reason, she once got his father’s fists for several times, but I didn’t compromise, he led his sister-in-law to support his mother tenaciously against his father’s irritable and male chauvinism in his heart. However, after we all got married, my mother became a strong woman, and she dared to fight against my father. She didn’t have the weak and good character when she was young at all. She say for children endure forever, now children large, she not afraid children not parents poor, cannot bear. Father’s character became more and more mild, and his heart became more and more soft. Every time we went back home and gathered around our mother, my father always asked for her advice on this aspect like flatter. At this time, my mother was proud and proud like a victorious general. But if I mentioned something wrong with my father, my mother would speak for him in every way, saying his advantages and that he was just bad temper. Occasionally, I would tell me quietly: if I care about him when he was young, I would like to kick him now. I said: Then we three sisters and sisters will treat him badly in the future, but only treat you well, OK? Mother then said, “How can that work? After all, it’s your father. That tone was afraid that we ignored father. Every time I went shopping with my mother, what I ate at last was all my father’s. My mother always carried a heavy bag, just like the general who went back to the court and returned to the old couple’s home, and there is almost nothing of its own in it. I remember a friend said: Our family is full of cocoons, mother’s tongue is full of cocoons, father’s heart is full of cocoons, and I have heard a thick layer of cocoons since I was young. Calluses protect their own territory. Tearing each other’s cocoons is also a pleasure of life. We learned father’s calmness and understood mother’s tolerance. They had never said sweet words in their whole life, but they had solid love for life. They used the indulgence of One Life to clear up the gratitude and resentment of several generations, make the family happy and the life peaceful. Like (prose editor: drops of ink become wounds) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Birthday

Today is my birthday. Look up at the wall clock on the wall. It’s just 9 o’clock. It has been 49 years and 02 hours since I broke off my fingers. The days passed so fast. It was like a plane. It just took off from Dongshan airport, but after a little confused for a while, it began to stagger down, A lot of scenery haven’t had time to see clearly, a lot of things haven’t had time to ponder over, and many things haven’t been done yet, they are about to land to Xishan airport. If the leaders of our company also need to retire at the age of 50, I will only have one year’s working time. Now, we must have the mental preparation of how to spend those lonely days in the future at home. Mr. Hugo once said: doing nothing will cause an old man’s misfortune. I believe this. My wife has been back home since she was 40. When she just retired, she didn’t read books or newspapers, and lay on the sofa to watch TV and sleep when she was idle. My thoughts were empty and I felt bored. I didn’t think about my son all day long, but I was just looking for my fault and picking my reasons. If I had something to do, I would create some messy leisure for myself. From my wife, I seemed to see the shadow of depression, anxiety, loneliness and boredom one year later. As long as I thought about it in my heart, I would be scared and annoyed. ren wu yuan lv, bi you jin you. I don’t have much interest in life. During these days, I often ponder over what to do after I retire? Ups and downs, ups and downs, flickering, simple, crying, laughing, real and fake, decades have come like this. Over the years, I have been used to cultivating excellence in state-owned enterprises. Instead of learning a skill, I drank a beer belly and got three highs (high blood pressure, high blood sugar and high blood fat), become a waste who can do nothing. Calm down and think rationally. It’s really sad. To be honest, over the years, my life has been like the big sand river in the south of the city. Spring, summer, autumn and winter almost always flow to the West in a clear, shallow and slowly way, there has never been a big whirlwind or a black wave that scares people. Of course, there is no trace. My life seems to have a head and no tail, no color, so hazy and ethereal dream. The countless and vague scenes in The Phantom were so incredible and incomprehensible that no matter how psychological they were, they could not straighten out a little clue with life value. Over the years, no matter what happened to me, I had only such a straight-minded mind. All the emotions of happiness, anger, sorrow and joy were clearly engraved on my face, which would not hide my mood, I don’t know what is the advantage of guarding against people. When talking and doing things, they never take any thoughts, play any narrow-minded eyes, and do everything with psychological intuition temporarily, play blindly and regard ignorance as character, it’s quite comfortable and chic to make mistakes all day long. When I was idle, I still liked to write letters: the schemer came and went in a hurry, the calculating man didn’t smile, the powerful man put his arms inside, the confident man only had himself, the generous man had no mind and no thought, and the powerful man had no brain. To kill time and play. In this real life, in terms of work, I have indeed been fooled by many people, suffered losses from many people, and had a lot of leisure time over the years, I also caused myself a lot of trouble. Thanks to God, his old man loves me quite much. I’m sorry to arrange me, a fool, to bring me any big disaster, nor did I suffer any serious mental injury, no matter what annoying things you encounter, whether it is big or small, then you will be confused. To be honest, in this colorful crowd, I don’t know why God and his old man bless me, a big fool who won’t harm the society and others for years. Over the years, my childhood life has been neither popular nor popular, and my work has been full of twists and turns. However, my spiritual life is generally quite full, detached and comfortable. Follow the destiny, let nature take its course, and everything should follow the fate. This is not simply an idealistic statement, nor does it mean that I have to shirk the responsibility of being a human being, just because I am a social person, many things cannot be transferred by my own thoughts and will. Sometimes, when I ponder over myself carefully, I will naturally say to myself: I am quite vulgar in my heart. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Yan Long

The recent essays of Yan Long are some short stories I wrote. Some old readers don’t like it. It’s just an attempt. They will update short stories occasionally in the future, and will not write directly like this. Today, I will continue to return to the essay series to talk about some personal life insights of Yan long. In recent years, sand mining in the river channel of Linyi has been rampant. Fighting is very common because of the competition for resources. It can be said that there are gangsters watching the field in many battlefields. I have a classmate’s house, which is on the edge of the river. Because of the large amount of sand mining in the river, his house was cracked. His father petitioned for help everywhere and went to the county government to make trouble. Finally, he was beaten continuously, and later he dared not to sue. Mineral resources are always scarce. It can be said that good people can’t do this kind of business at all, and this kind of business is all profiteering industry. Therefore, in Linyi, as long as the battlefield boss is mentioned, it is the same as the coal boss in Shanxi, which gives people the impression that it is a group of rich but poor upstarts. In recent years, there are often news like coal boss’s black heart causing mine accidents, coal boss’s local tyrants getting married extravagantly, coal boss’s daughter dragging a sack of money to go to the car market and so on in the media. When you mention the coal boss, you will feel it is a derogatory term. It seems that the coal boss is a nouveau riche. They are all rich and heartless, and they are bullying the good. They are all people who have no conscience and no conscience. They know that they. I used to feel the same way about these battlefield owners, and I also thought so. But recently, I have been in contact with qualified bosses in a row, and this feeling has changed a bit. This change is not to say that it is right to fight, but to have a more comprehensive understanding of these bosses. In Fei County, there was a battlefield boss, Liu, who was over 40 years old, with colorful dragons on his chest. He was tall and tall, weighing 200. He was a very rough man. In Da Liu’s car, there are often some vulgar magazines of women with three points. On National Day, I went to his home for something, but I found that I was reading an English original Psychology Monograph. I was shocked at that time! After communication, I realized that Da Liu was a top student in Wuhan University, majoring in psychology. Under his vulgar disguise, there is a psychology master who knows the world and looks like the human heart. Yes, there are thousands of people in Da Liu’s company, from grassroots individuals to transport drivers, to managers and those gangsters. Although Da Liu was full of rude words at ordinary times, how could he manage thousands of people well if he didn’t have some internal strength. The reason why he behaves vulgar is that some people in his environment only eat this set. Some of them are migrant workers who cannot be integrated with them in this way; Some of them are small gangsters. How do you manage weak scholars in a month? Secondly, it is recognized by the society that they have no culture. Why does he have to argue with everyone? I was very touched when I came out from the big Liu family. People are not afraid of not working hard. Not working hard is also the right of life. Why do you have to work hard? Who did you recruit to be a mediocre person? I am afraid that I will not work hard, but also distort and fabricate, and depreciate others’ efforts for no reason. We only saw coal bosses and battlefield bosses spending a lot of money outside, thinking that they had exploited the loopholes of the policy, but we didn’t see them completing a systematic project of digging sand mines, we must go to the lecture hall, go to the well and mine, command thousands of troops and horses, and become local ruffians and hooligans. Old readers who read the essays written by Yan long in the past all know that Yan Long has often written about my running in the past six months. You have to try it and you will know that it is really difficult to insist on exercising every day. Either there is social engagement today, or it will rain on cloudy day tomorrow, and it will be fine the day after tomorrow. Zijiyou is too lazy to go out. I told my wife that you only saw other people’s waist, but you didn’t see beautiful women sweating day and night in the gym. If you don’t have a slim waist, you think that everyone has a good constitution, but you don’t have the perseverance to diet or exercise. It’s not wrong not to work hard, but to be cynical, so my mind becomes distorted day by day. Successful people are either flattery or heartless. Only you are the kindest in the world, which is one-sided. On the street, seeing those local tyrants driving BMW and Benz, they felt that they must be either lucky or bad. Seeing a beautiful woman driving luxury cars and buying luxuries, he thought that he must be either a mistress or a local tyrant godfather. In such a big society, there must be local tyrants and gentlemen, but let’s think about the local tyrants around us carefully. They are more diligent and studious than us, and live frugally. The superficial shopping is refreshing, which is just an appearance. Behind the appearance, we can’t see the hard work and hard work of others. Don’t be so angry all day long. The world really owes no one. 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