Worship

When I was having lunch, I found something black appeared in the bowl, and instinctively picked it up with my hands. Then I realized that there was a flickering black shadow in my right eye, which was projected into the bowl. My mother-in-law said: It may be the same as me. It is the precursor of cataract. Come on, I will give you a drop of medicine to treat cataract. I also thought it was cataract, so I asked my parents to take some medicine. I thought it would be good after a while, and I didn’t care at all. After lunch, I took my grandson to the Liberation Monument Guotai Grand theater to watch the performance of Ukrainian artists in Chongqing. When I went out, I obviously felt a lot of dark clouds fluttering in my right eye, which made my heart vaguely uneasy. However, these two tickets are very valuable. In order to let my grandson see this rare performance, I still plucked up courage and insisted on taking him there. The theater is black, and the black clouds in the eyes are integrated with such an environment. After entering the theater, there is no feeling at all. In addition, it is a happy thing to accompany my grandson, I am also happy to see him happy, completely forgetting the hidden danger of eyes. As soon as I went out of the theater, I saw the light, which really scared me a lot. It was much more powerful than when I came in. A wisp of dark clouds floated out of the glasses frame, like the flood of breaching the bank, I felt nervous and knew that it must be the bleeding of the glass body of my eyes. This situation was very strange. The outside of my eyes was fine. People who didn’t know could not see that my eyes were bleeding at all, only you can feel the surging waves in your eyes. Hurry up and send my grandson back to their home. I must go to the hospital. On the way to the hospital, dark clouds completely covered my right eye vision, like patches of black snowflakes falling into my eyes. Fortunately, there was another eye that was good, and I could still hold it strong, turning a blind eye, turning a blind eye and driving on the road, I carefully grasped the steering wheel and drove towards a top three hospital which was close to my home. Standing in front of the doctor, you really have no confidence. You have to be respectful to let them teach you how old you are? Why are you so irresponsible to yourself? When did the blood come out? With so much blood, why didn’t you come in time? Do you know this is very dangerous? If you don’t do well, it will be a catastrophe! The doctor’s words made me feel ashamed and uneasy. I thought: it’s over. It’s over. I may have to operate on my eyes this time. I may not be able to keep them. Maybe I will be a one-eyed dragon in the future. I was arranged to be hospitalized immediately. The doctor said: This patient is one of the most dangerous patients at present. Her eyes can’t detect the reason. It is totally a bubble of blood. She must lie still and completely, put your head high and let the blood sink. Both eyes should be tightly wrapped up, even the eyeballs can not move, infusion, stop bleeding. At this time, I had nothing to worry about. Anyway, when I arrived at the hospital, everything was listened to the doctor. I was like an obedient child, lying quietly. It is not a game in general sense to cover your eyes and lie still. It is a helpless treatment. For the first time in my life, I was knocked down on the hospital bed with my eyes covered. My heart was extremely cold. No one accompanied me. It seemed that I was lying quietly. In fact, the complex agitation in my heart was beyond words. I know that my bad eyes are the result of blood inheritance. My mother’s eyes are very bad. I inherited my mother’s problems. When my mother was young, she had high myopia and was a little older, the fundus problem came out. We took mother to the hospital for examination. Although the doctor said that mother’s fundus was almost dead and it was not easy to have cataract, we still insisted that the doctor did cataract surgery for mother. Later, it was true that as the doctor said, to no avail, my mother’s eye disease did not improve at all. Other organs of mother’s body are all good, only the eyes make her suffer a lot. The eyes are not good, and she has fallen down several times. The last time she broke the bones of her legs, which reduced the quality of life, it also shortened her life span for many years, and her poor mother was blind when she left. My mother belonged to sheep, and I also belonged to sheep. It was said that the women belonged to sheep suffered a lot, which seemed to be true. I almost inherited all the signs in my mother’s life. In those days, I lay still in the white world of the hospital. Apart from thinking of my mother, I played back the impermanent life like a movie while my brain was empty, I saw a lot of joys and sorrows flooded by years, and many ups and downs were covered by dust. People, it is really not easy to walk in the world. I am born, old, sick and dead, miserable, and frustrated. The tide rises and falls, who can escape? What are the gains and losses that cannot be put down? Is there anything you need to argue with me? Life is the last two words: give up! Give up everything you ‘ve worked so hard to get, give up the grudge you care so much, come from there, and go back there. Lying quietly in the quiet space of the hospital, forgetting the noisy world, only the original vital signs are yours, and the tranquility is still far away. I believe that in such a special time, those wisest people will inevitably think about this kind of problem, even if I am silly. Of course, it was painful to think about this kind of problem, and my heart was also cold. I didn’t know why in those days, I always thought of a poem written by Lu You when he was old and sick, and when he was quiet at night: jiang wo deserted village not self-pity, sunsi for guo rong Luntai. Late into the night lying wind rain, cavalry Glacier dream come. Lu You, as a soldier, did not feel empty and lonely because of his old age, nor did he feel sad and pessimistic because of the isolation of barren villages. In his empty world, he slept in the night and listened to the sound of wind and rain, as if the horses were screaming, in the past, a long sword was in hand, the back of the horse was all-powerful, and the sword was shining on the ice, which was a glorious time worth showing off. At the same time, when people listened to the wind and rain at night, Lu You’s feelings of soldiers formed a great contrast with mine. I didn’t have any passion, and wisps of sorrow came to my heart. Many patients around are accompanied by relatives. Thinking about the muddled life, When I was old, I was still enveloped by loneliness, and the coolness came out of my spine. I have been worried that I am ill and hospitalized. What should I do if my worried husband is left unattended? He is mentally disabled and has inconvenient hands and feet. What if he falls down? What should I do in case of sudden illness? No! I must tell the doctor, let me leave the hospital early, I will go home and watch my husband. Alas! Forget it, forget it, don’t think about it, listen to the doctor, I remind myself not to think so much, good people have their own natural appearance, so I silently read in my heart: Amitabha, Amitabha, amitabha’s eye disease is half a month in hospital, and his heart is like a glacier swimming far away. A blank past, with the wind and rain into the dream garden. Thanks for the blessing of Bodhisattva, I had such a fierce eye disease, and there was a turning point a few days later. The doctor saw my bleeding point through the instrument. Even they didn’t believe it. There was only one place for my bleeding point, they thought I had a large area of capillary burst or retina shedding. The young female doctor who gave me laser suddenly became a living bodhisattva in my eyes. She was so gentle and amiable, and her hands were so powerful to rejuvenate. When she checked me with the instrument, through reflection, I saw the secret in my eyes, which was deep in mountains, rivers, forests, sky, no wonder people describe the eyes as windows of the soul. It turns out that there is a small universe inside the eyes. I remembered that when my son was just one month old, one day I held him in my arms, and the little guy looked at me. The pupil without any pollution was so clear, and the furry blood vessel looked like a flower spreading out, filar silk clearly visible. I was suddenly a little afraid to look down. In my clear eyes, a feeling of awe surprised me. No wonder someone would burst into tears when looking at each other. This eye disease made me know more deeply that among human organs, eyes are the most worshiped place. They are the second life of human beings. What can you do without eyes? No eyes is the disability in the disability, and you can’t lack eyes without anything! I know a blind man who gave massage to my husband many years ago. They all say that there are ten blind men and nine monsters. It’s true that this blind man is smart and handsome, and he can play and sing everything, he has a great memory. He can remember who you are with his voice. As long as he approaches him, he knows who you are without speaking. I asked him, why do you know the world? He said that he knew the world by the touch of voice and hands. I asked him, is there any color in your world? He said he didn’t know what color was. I asked him, is there any color in your dream? He said no, there was no change in the day and night, and it was all black. He told me that his greatest wish was to see the world, even if he could only see it at one glance. People’s memories and thoughts are stored in their minds. Sparks and Thunder flashing at a certain frequency can make people feel deeply. Suffering from eye diseases, they think of a conversation with the blind many years ago, it is like thunder rolling on the ear. The biggest wish of the Blind is to have a look at the world. We people with complete heads and tails don’t know the pain of disability, and we don’t know the blessing in the blessing. What a sin! I was discharged from the hospital, and finally I was discharged from the hospital. My bad luck and depression could finally be released. I was discharged from the hospital, and finally I was discharged from the hospital. Even the Sun knew that I was going to leave the hospital today, showing a smile in the clouds. When was the most sober person, and the moment I walked out of the hospital, I thought of a few words: maybe you never have money from others, but you have to be satisfied, because there will always be someone poorer than you, maybe you will never be less beautiful than others, but you should be confident, because there will always be someone uglier than you, maybe you will never be smarter than others, but you should be proud, because there will always be someone more stupid than you. Maybe you will never be happy than others, but you should be calm. Because there will always be someone more painful than you. Maybe you will never be as smart as others, but you should be lucky, because some people’s biggest wish is just to have a look at the World praise (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Lost

The night is already very deep. The noisy village town gradually calmed down like a tired baby. I didn’t sleep, lost sleep, and didn’t feel sleepy at all. I have asked myself for thousands of times, but I can’t find the answer at all. I only know that my heart is blocked with sulk, upset and anxious. I stood in front of the window, pushed open the screen window, took a deep breath, and felt that the air in the midnight seemed to be much more refreshing. Without the turbidity in the daytime, my mind gradually became clear, take a cigarette and watch the cigarette ring fade away slowly until it disappears in the vast night. The neon lights on the roadside also pull the whole street very long, which seems to have no end, there were only a few moths dancing on the yellow board, no stage, no audience, no applause and applause, only persistence. Stick to the dream of pursuing light. I, a person who claimed to pursue dreams, lost myself in this noisy, turbid, indifferent and Lonely City, and could no longer find the way forward, I have tried to sober myself up for countless times and tried hard to find my way home, but once again I lost myself in the world of materialistic desires. Without pursuits and dreams, what I left was just my body, maybe only death can be released and reborn. Like (prose editor: Ke Er) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

University

Bizarre and colorful; Dreams are hazy and real. All living beings in the world of mortals are busy, chasing their dreams. I grew up in a small town near Jialing River, the land of abundance. The sun, moon, stars, rainbow in the mysterious and high sky, as well as the gorgeous morning glow and sunset glow. On the vast land, the clouds and mist floating between the green mountainsides after rain, the cattle and sheep moving on the green hillside, the busy farmers in the fields, the curling smoke on the top of the thatched cottage, and the birds singing in the forest, the Twitter in the water… Everything, like a magnet, attracts my innocent and curious heart. In the family of scholarly families, the noble moral character and diligent spirit of the elders have nurtured me from time to time. So I had colorful dreams in my innocent childhood. And he made an oath to strive to realize his colorful dream. However, the dream of life is dimly uncertain and difficult to grasp. Since the first day I went to school at the age of six, I had a dream of going to college, but it was so difficult and long to realize this dream. At first, I entered a serious life university, and it was not until 12 years later that I was honored to enter the threshold of a real university. Now I still feel the pain of the cangji muscle after recalling it. When I was 17 years old, it was circulated in the campus: when I was admitted to the university, I could not pass the jingle of just riding a hatchwoman. When the sweet dream of going to college was coming soon, that unprecedented cultural revolution storm hit the land of China. Hundreds of millions of people were stunned by this sudden hurricane. What was more unexpected was the young and pure students, who were the first to bear the brunt. The school was closed, and millions of students who were not involved in the world were involved in the whirlpool of great rebellion and series. My college dream with many classmates of the same year instantly became a bubble. Under the strict discipline of my parents, although I was not involved in the whirlpool of rebellion and concatenation, I did not escape the impact of the educated youth going to the countryside to accept the re-education movement of the poor and middle peasants. I was transferred to a deep mountain ditch thousands of miles away from my hometown. The poor and backward living conditions, heavy physical labor, no study time, and even the survival was very difficult, which made people out of breath, there is no dream of going to college. In order not to be buried and to realize my ideal, I resolutely decided to go far away from home and continue to pursue the colorful dreams in my heart. I came to the frontier of my motherland alone and perched in a deserted pasture. Needless to say, the conditions there were worse than the places where I went to the countryside. The reason why I didn’t drift again was that the class struggle there was not so fierce as that in the mainland. I couldn’t hear the deafening slogans and cruel criticism scenes. What is more important is that there are vast and flat land, beautiful grassland scenery and simple folk customs. When I was desperate and almost desperate, it was the prairie that took me in with her broadness and generosity; It was the hardworking, brave, kind and honest Mongolian herdsmen who touched me with their true feelings. From then on, the unique color and fragrance of grassland, quietness and tranquility gradually melted into my lonely, wandering, sad and lonely heart, and my heart began to beat with the melody of grassland. I fell in love with the fertile soil of the grassland, the magnificent scenery of the grassland, the mountain spirit of the waterfall which can sing from the air on the grassland, and the white and beautiful swan in the water of the grass swamp. And the real owner of the grassland, Mongolian herdsmen, is more worthy of my reverence and love. They accompany the grassland for generations, not afraid of the fierce wind and rain, cold and hot heat, bravely confront the harsh climate and contend against the poverty and backwardness; They irrigate the grassland with their own sweat, to repay the grassland devoutly, none of them expected to upload their names in the history of Danqing, and they only believed and gave silently unconditionally. In those miserable days, it was their sincerity, diligence, wisdom and grassland that influenced me, Inspired me and moved my heart to a bitter understanding, I jumped out of a small circle and thought that I was living in a country with a long history of civilization for thousands of years, I am a descendant of Yan Huang with great national spirit and excellent tradition. So I looked forward to the future, made up my mind to live bravely, and made an oath of never giving up without success. Since then, I have regarded the grassland as a living University, grazing with herdsmen; Riding stubborn strong horses galloping on the broad and boundless grassland like green carpet, go to pick up your friend’s bride with the horse team. Eating large pieces of mutton, drinking a large bowl of inferior wine, singing rough and bold ancient folk songs, and turning around immediately; In the Nadam conference, participating in competitions such as Diao Yang and aunt chasing; in the galloping horse group like the tide, throw strong, long hair rope to cover the horse. Although the conditions are hard, I feel happy in the bitterness. At the same time, I didn’t give up my pursuit of cultural knowledge and stayed with books every night. In the low and narrow Mongolian yurt on the desolate grassland, I held several literary works brought from my hometown again and studied them attentively. The oil lamp like beans reflects my lonely figure; The faint light is confusing, accompanied by wind and rain, thunder and lightning, accompanying the moon to welcome the Morning Star; Driving away the loss and melancholy, calling for hope and longing; the boat that guided my life avoided the evil waves and reefs, and gave me one journey after another. In this way, with strong will and perseverance, I worked hard and endured all kinds of sufferings of adversity, and spent ten autumn and winter there. In that melting pot where I lived in the university, I learned something that could not be learned in books. It gives me a new enlightenment and makes me deeply understand: in the vast world, people always feel the hardship and bitterness of life, and many people often lose their direction in adversity, it was because he was confused even what he pursued, so he felt fear, anxiety and nervous, thus falling into the mire of decadence, sincang and even suicide. On the contrary, those who have firm ambitions will experience all kinds of life tastes given by fate, grow up and mature in suffering, and will have abundant gains as long as they make unremitting efforts; as long as you are brave and persistent, you can turn around and go forward in the countercurrent; As long as you are good at judging the situation, you will be calm in the crisis and overcome the difficulties. Buddhism says: one flower, one world, one tree and one spirit probably imply the inspiration and vitality of life. In the university where I lived, I didn’t lament the past years and the precious youth that had fallen; But I felt that I had exercised my firm will and tempered my strong body. Universe functioning. China, the ship of ancient civilization, finally got rid of the profound national disaster, raised the sail to catch up with and surpass the advanced countries in the world, and set sail towards the modern goal with science. When I learned the news that the college entrance examination system was restored, I immediately felt excited and ecstatic. Unfortunately, I lived in a pastoral area with extremely inconvenient transportation, and it was already the third year that I was allowed to take the college entrance examination. With the full support of Mongolian elder brothers in grassland, after careful and intense review and examination, I really got the university admission notice that I had been longing. When I took the long-lost, hard-won and heavy admission notice with trembling hands, I jumped up like a child with tears. The cells of the whole body are like waking up from sleep, the blood is boiling, a brand new and infinitely Beautiful World is displayed in front of my eyes, I feel everything is so fresh and smelly, alive! I, an over-age college student who has gone through the storm and snow of the society, the ups and downs of life and the ups and downs of the world, only when I took the textbooks of more than a dozen subjects, A little silly, intermittent and disjointed knowledge is so strange to I am and profound. When the teacher taught the first class, I just felt the buzzing sound in my ears, like taking a plane and listening to nothing, which made me panic and fear, wondering whether I could continue studying? After fear, I quickly adjusted my mind, strengthened my belief, and gradually adapted to the learning environment. I was eager to absorb all kinds of knowledge, and with a fervent heart, I worked tirelessly, listen carefully, check materials and do homework. I urged myself with the motto that stupid birds fly first. Every day, I went to the classroom first, to the classroom of the teaching building, and to the last one to leave. No matter in cold or hot weather, beside the wall lamp in the corridor, under the street lamp in the campus, I was reading hard in the middle of the night. It seemed that I wanted to take a breath of knowledge like the air in the morning and the fragrance of flowers. Hard work pays off. A year later, my academic performance changed from being behind to being among the best in my class. I didn’t relax because of this, and even doubled my whole body and mind into study. I remember that in order to write my graduation thesis well, I forgot all about sleeping and eating, and spent all day in the library to consult relevant materials. One night, when the library staff went to close the door, she found that I was lying beside the bookshelf. She called my classmates to take me to the hospital. After examination, I had a bad cold and my body temperature reached 40 degrees. University is indeed the cradle for people to realize their dreams. University life is colorful, enviable and proud. I have left university for nearly three or ten years, however, the study and life scenes of more than 1,000 days and nights in the university still appeared clearly in front of me, which made my passion surge and association dance. Year and month flow, the past is long. I realized my dream of being late for college, and I really felt that college was the lecture hall of knowledge, the source of wisdom in life and the turning point of life’s fate. My College Life has laid a solid foundation for me to do a good job in my post and job, and for me to make gratifying achievements in literary creation for the rest of my life, I will never forget the smelting of me by the university all my life, and sincerely thank the teachers for their education and cultivation. Passage of Time. The wheel of history has entered a new century. The great motherland is prosperous and powerful. University students in the heyday are enjoying the university life which has never been seen before. The environment is quiet and the teaching conditions are excellent, you are all young people soaked in sweet water, and you should cherish every minute in college. You should always think of: knowledge is the beacon to guide life, and the darkness of the soul must be driven away by knowledge; Without true talent and practical learning, it is hard to realize even a beautiful dream. If you want to become a useful talent who truly lives in the country and the people, you must learn all the courses offered by the University solidly. Strive to cultivate their noble personality and sentiment, and constantly improve their self-restraint in all aspects. Remember what Dante said: human beings cannot live like beasts, but should pursue knowledge and virtues. No matter you are in domestic institutions of higher learning or overseas famous universities, you are the spoiled child of the times and the future of our motherland. If you are a brave man with ambition, as long as you grasp the university life well, when you walk out of school and enter the society, no matter how your fate is arranged or how complicated your journey is, you will surely move forward bravely and become a successful person with brilliant career, happy family and happy life! Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

No

Looking up at the sky, you can’t find a star; Looking down at the ground, you can’t find a way. It seems that life will always go through such a period, with rainy rain and heavy mist. You can’t see the past or the future clearly. Everything seems to be covered with a layer of yarn. Every time you stretch out your hand as if you can touch it, it seems to be out of reach. Time seemed to be a curse, which locked me firmly. I drew a circle, but I couldn’t remember. I tried to go around for a while, but I couldn’t go around the barren. The post-90s generation is really an awkward stage. At this stage, it is lonely. This kind of loneliness is three thousand meters of coast, seven centimeters of blue, crowded with people, but no one understands you; At this stage, it is also lonely, this kind of loneliness is from the bustling street to the desolate alley, watching the pedestrians coming and going, but it has nothing to do with itself. Time stole my childhood, but I couldn’t find my peace in the huge world of mortals, so I could only start to fear inexplicably. Inadvertently, my face was already full of tears. Being young and frivolous seems to have become an excuse for us to indulge ourselves. I am eager to have a proud education background, but my ability is not worthy of my ambition, indulging myself and decadent years; I am eager to live freely, but I have to succumb to life and suppress myself, abandoned Youth. I ‘ve heard a lot of truths, but I still can’t live my life well, just as I clearly know my weakness, but I don’t know how to get out of this darkness. There is no goal, no motivation, no direction to move forward, but only a hint of absurdity. The smog in the distance is too thick, I lost the sun, I lost the stars in the sky, and I only had slight fluorescence. In the most gorgeous years, how can I act on my own when I am arrogant, laughing and scolding, squander my youth, give up halfway and deceive myself? A confused life, a confused life. I am not sure what my I am like ten years later, what my future situation will be, what kind of old age I will give my parents, and what will happen next, everything is unknown. Maybe when I am old, looking back on the past, I will sigh. I will be sad, leaving half sober and half drunk. Is this the only way to grow up? I am afraid of growing up. Growing up means undertaking, disguise and pain. But I have no choice. One day I will wear a mask and smile on the stage of life, and those passers-by, acting their own monologue. I am afraid of people who face to face and behind, people who haggle over every ounce, people who do whatever they want to achieve their goals, but I am more afraid that one day I will become such a person. The world is so good and bad. The world is so simple but complex, which makes people infatuated and disgusting. When I was young, under the protection of my parents, the world was so wonderful that I didn’t have to worry about anything. One day, when I packed up my bags, left my hometown and faced the world alone, I found that the world was so unbearable. Walking alone, walking, from the initial timidity to bravery, from the initial chaos to the later Qingming. I don’t know whether this is a kind of growth or a kind of loss? I don’t know what I will become in the future. Shaohua died secretly. One day I was old. What did I have left? Maybe it’s because we are young, maybe it’s because we don’t have more things, or it’s because we have to worry about giving new words, so we always like to tell sorrow when we are young. I am eager to say that when I have walked a long way, tasted some bitterness and tasted a period of life, I can also say lightly that everything is just like this. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…