Hard to say

After thinking for a while, I realized that it was vague, ambiguous and even helpless to say goodbye. Its two meanings (meeting again and never seeing each other), one makes people full of expectation, the other makes people die. Due to the complex interweaving of expressing the wrong feelings and participating in the meeting, there are ten or two situations where the result deviates from the original intention. In any case, only those who have been really painful will be dead-hearted to see each other, which means never seeing and never seeing. However, there are often so many people who hate and remember the reality. So, goodbye, sometimes I can’t stop. For example, pain. People’s attitude towards it is self-evident. But who can say resolutely that he will leave without him, and it will wave away? The torture caused by toothache twice in three years made other diseases become a wizard. Especially the first tooth extraction, if there is no second tooth extraction to correct my thoughts, tooth extraction will become the first pain beyond the pain of giving birth in my memory. Giving birth to a child makes the pain great in form because of its great significance, but toothache is really different. How different it is, the doctor said, it is a kind of pain that makes people want to jump off a building. When I just saw the dawn of life, I didn’t want to jump off the building, so I told the doctor that I also wanted to witness the rising and falling of the sun. The doctor said, then you can only listen to me. I said, if there is no choice, just do whatever you want. He went on to say that from the perspective of aesthetics, girls should pull out wisdom teeth before the age of 16. Obviously, I can’t pull it out, which has no aesthetic significance, but I still have to pull it out. If I keep it, all other aesthetics will lose its meaning in front of it. Now I finally understand that wisdom teeth are not only a tooth with ulterior motives but also an ambitious and schemer. I am talking about home because it is too destructive. Although there are no historical records, as far as I recall, my wisdom teeth were born in the late 1990 s. At that time, I was participating in a chorus. When I opened my mouth and spoke, I felt that there was always an impulse in the place behind my teeth. It was a contest that stood out from the crowd. The result of the contest was that my face became swollen, then I sang out of tune. Fortunately, I am not a lead singer either. It doesn’t matter if I run one or two tones. Later, it did not move, and I also relaxed my vigilance. When it told me its existence with pain, I had to ask for help from the doctor. The first uprising was on the right. I gave it to a female doctor in a Chinese medicine hospital without any understanding. The female doctor took a piece of dental film and took me to the clinic. She had taken anesthetic for three times successively. The female doctor and her assistant took screwdriver, pliers and hammer, tinkling together. That scene reminded me of the situation of blacksmith beating Iron. At that time, I was really not sure what they would make me look like. If you come, then you will be safe. When I felt that the brain nerve was shocked and dislocated, I almost couldn’t help sending a signal for help, the female doctor agreed. Then I shook my wisdom teeth in front of me. The doctor stuffed a bar of gauze into the place where I just lost my teeth and told me that when I bit it and it was all right, I covered my right face to go to work. I thought the doctor and I both got what we wanted, but four or five days later, the pain continued. After several twists and turns walking into another hospital, the result given by the doctor is dry socket disease, and the most intuitive description of this disease is that the tooth groove is festering and festering. He asked me if I knew whether to shave my bone or not, and I nodded to show that I had heard of it. He said, “You have to bear it. It is very painful. You can’t take anesthetic. You have to scrape those dead things from the dental bed bit by bit. God, although I haven’t got a certificate, I am indeed a strong person who has been praised orally by doctors. However, I can only say that the pain is unbearable, the cone center is probably just like that. At that time, tears seemed to be driven away in an attempt to relieve the pain, but it was in vain and could not be washed away. After that, the doctor surnamed Fang who came across said that he could actually take anesthetic. But the pain is too painful. There is no unified and standardized operating rules to follow, so it can only be created by individuals. At that time, I admitted with tears that who let me kill pigs in my last life? 555 ~~~~~~ with the fear of the first tooth extraction, I neither dared to speak out, nor dared to ignore the enemy. I kept an eye on the new trend of left wisdom teeth. When another bad tooth fell off, the pain followed again. I had a premonition that there was no second choice. But I really don’t want the first ending. This time I was more cautious. The first hospital was flatly afraid of going there. Other hospitals with a little reputation were afraid when thinking of the crowded people. I don’t know if you have asked yourself: where on earth am I going? It seems that many tall buildings and clinics along the street are waving prescriptions for treatment, scalpels for removing sick meat and anesthesia sticks that make people forget pain happily, but the happier they are, the more scared I am. It’s better to go to the community hospital downstairs, where I have seen diseases that do not hurt or itch for several times. A big lady surnamed Fang is more careful, but I don’t know whether the tooth extraction is quick or not. The first two times he went there, he only said that your teeth are not easy to pull out, let’s see again. Later, he said, if you are not an acquaintance, I will not pull out your teeth. I pulled it out after all. The reader didn’t know something. Half of my fear of tooth extraction came from my mother. My mother said that when they were young, they always pulled teeth like this: tie the painful teeth to the turning of the door leaf and turn the door leaf hard… I always don’t let her talk down. She also said that the mother of one of her colleagues was unable to get sick because of tooth extraction, and then she passed away. Therefore, this time I am sitting in front of the doctor with all the fear and pain from tooth extraction, almost dying. As soon as I sat on the bed where my teeth were extracted, the light turned on towards me. The movement and pain caused by hammer and crowbar began to go through my ears and run to my brain. However, this time I was disappointed at first, then overjoyed. Dr. Fang didn’t use pliers or hammers. He only used a screwdriver-like thing (I didn’t dare to open my eyes to see it). After a mouse-like sound for countless times, dr. Fang said casually: The teeth have been pulled out. I recovered from God, and God told me that I was still alive after my teeth were pulled out. Experience of tooth extraction: Before tooth extraction, select a good doctor who is skilled and responsible. My standard for a good doctor is: only use one screwdriver (to be corrected)! If TA tells you to knock it down with a hammer, turn around and leave immediately. The simpler you walk, the better you won’t take a cotton swab with you. Let TA look at your back and think about how to improve your skills. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Remote send

Sending Qingming festival from afar if you ask where your heart is sad, every year the loess fills a new grave inscription guess that in these days, everyone will say a poem in which the rain rains in Qingming Festival, and people on the road want to break their souls, fortunately, there are still people who remember this day. In my memory, the Tomb-Sweeping Day in childhood was the orchid full of mountains, the Tomb-Sweeping Day in childhood was the verses that people on the road wanted to break their souls, while the tomb-sweeping day now is the endless yearning for the days before, my aunt published a sentence in the space, to the effect that I missed my grandparents. When I saw it, my heart was really sour for a long time, one is that I was moved by my aunt’s yearning for my grandparents, and the other is that I have not avoided the guilt in my heart for many years. My grandmother’s eggs in childhood and the frolic in the bathtub all came into my mind, put your hands together and pray sincerely that they are well in heaven, not alone, not worried, not working hard on the loess, burying many pillars in people’s hearts, that mountain, presumably, the continuous overcast rain is the tears in the hearts of those strong people. It is the rain of lovesickness. Light a few incense, burn a pile of paper money, and talk about the daily routine that has not been finished, click a string of firecrackers and watch the rising smoke and the paper ash hovering slowly. The firecrackers are also their unique language. Let them take their thoughts, gratitude and guilt, only when you lose can you cherish it. I’m really sorry. Deep in your soul, we still love you. This time is a time when sorrow and beauty are intertwined. Thousands of acres of flowers bloom, but there are fewer people watching flowers together, can I see you off with the tens of thousands of mu of flowers? Maybe this is the endless life cycle. In the flowers, is he laughing at one place, and is it another way of living for her life? In the world of mortals, we who live are their partners. We live not only for ourselves, but also for them. Facing the aging of our faces and the fragility of our lives, to avoid the scene of filial piety but absence of relatives like today, I think as children, we should know how to care, cherish a life-and-death dialogue, send rain to chase the soul, kiss each other, heart to heart, may the dead rest in peace, the living be happy, safe, happy, strong and brave to live, merciful and kind to live like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

My

In my memory, my mother did a very good job in needlework, especially the embroidery she painted, which was far and near and a little famous. There are many kinds of shoes my mother cut, especially the Tiger-toe shoes, tiger-toe socks and tiger-head gloves which cover children’s eyes (the embroidered eyes are not convex and concave), which are vivid and vivid. Maybe I was influenced by my mother early. It seemed that I took a needle much earlier than a pen. In my memory, my mother’s sewing basket was my earliest toy, in which the colorful cloth head and colorful silk threads had a great attraction to me, and I often played for a long time. In my memory, mother’s dressing box was always filled with piles of embroidery and shoe patterns cut from white paper, which made relatives and friends from far and near come to beg. In my memory, the first time I took a needle to make a needlework seemed to be only five or six years old. My mother’s original intention was to encircle me and prevent me from running around on the narrow ship side. After all, the huge red paint gourd on her back could not make my mother reduce half of her worries, it can not reduce the fear of people on the ship for water. Perhaps, my initial perception of color came from my mother’s rag tip, and the first work I made with a needle was the rag tip. My mother trimmed all kinds of cloth strips into triangles of the same size, or trapezoid or fan shapes. According to my mother’s aesthetic, she set them one by one on the small table in front of me and taught me to go from inside to outside, layer by layer to straight seam, splice into square semi-finished products. Gradually, there were more semi-finished squares like me. They shook their bodies in mother’s hands and turned into bright and colorful quilts, or children’s unique quilts or coats, or simple small vests made of several pieces. Such small rags are always full of endless attraction to me. Small cloth strips which are less than the width of fingers are sewn into the inner heart of the rag tip. The gradient color selection is from shallow to deep, just like flowers in full bloom, from the flower core to the flower surface, I have blended into my own small mind, which injected endless fun into my lonely water life in my childhood. In the memory of preschool age, it seems that except for a radio, these colorful needlework are left. This kind of cloth tip often has a strong color contrast, which can make good use of the pattern and texture of the rag, and then rub into your own creativity to achieve unexpected aesthetic feeling. In the tailor’s shop, I bought a lot of rags for one yuan, and the waste was reused, which added colorful colors to the poor and monotonous life of that era. The most important thing is that it comes from its beautiful meaning, which is also called hundreds of cloths for the cloth tip. It is endowed with a beautiful wish to exorcise evil and avoid disasters by hardworking and kind people, and pray for health and safety. Maybe it comes from heredity, or maybe I got used to my mother’s demure when she lowered her head to be a needlework, and I have already been familiar with all kinds of stitch methods and steps of my mother. My mother always praised me for my unique perception of colors. The beginner stage was very short. A few months later, I learned embroidery with my mother. The stage of learning monochrome was not long, and soon I learned colorful embroidery with my mother with a little flower stretch. Monochrome embroidery starts from embroidering diapers, and the diapers of people on the ship are always extraordinary. On the double-layer square coarse cloth surface, add waist about two inches high, or blue, blue, or purple. On these rectangular waist, mother used to draw continuous patterns, or symmetrical plate Lotus, or other pictographic flowers. There are many kinds of patterns on diapers, such as Nine-son pomegranate, a handrail, and lotus flowers, three peaches worshipping mother, gourd, water chestnut and other flowers and fruits with auspicious meanings. The monochromatic embroidery type of diapers is huge, the pattern is clear, leaving a lot of white space, and the atmosphere is jumping without losing softness. All the semi-finished products I embroidered need to be reprocessed by my mother, and she will choose a layer of extremely soft cotton cloth to lining it to prevent the embroidery thread from being polished to the baby’s immature little butt. Perhaps because of the strong wind of the boat, there were not so many clothes clips in the past. Such diapers were nailed with long tapes and tied to ropes to dry, blue, white and purple, like colorful flags dancing in the air, it has become a unique scenery for people on board. Colorful embroidery can test the skill of quietness more than single embroidery. First of all, you must sit quietly and have no distractions to embroider satisfactory works. My quiet character has been in existence for a long time, and maybe it has been formed at that time. Most of the colorful embroidery works are pillowcases. With white background or light pink, pink and blue background, flowers usually choose peony, Lily, Magpie and plum which symbolize auspiciousness. The fabric of the pillowcase is very thin, anti-wrinkle is the first thing to pay attention to, and also the most test of patience. Colored threads are hung in rows on the online board. With the fine and uniform superposition or coverage of stitch layer by layer, the embroideries in the stretch of flowers form little by little, which are colorful, convex and concave, and lifelike. The needlework is the most self-cultivation. No matter how playful a child is, a heart will become gentle and quiet with flowers stretching in his arms. Calm down, you can see from the length of a embroidery thread she used. The most common saying of my mother is that if you want to save time, you will be more likely to tie the thread, which will cause uneven force and wrinkle of the embroidery thread. On the contrary, it will delay more time. Think carefully, the Little Female Red reflects the philosophy of life. Since I was at the age of school, I left my mother early and lived in a relative’s house. I didn’t learn my mother’s skill of making shoes, and I still feel sorry till now. I still remember that before leaving, my mother cut me a small shoe pattern with a thumb size, and even the Foundation was soft. I still remember that it was a pair of Big Red wide mouth mushroom shoes. My mother put a dot on the white sole with a ballpoint pen and asked me to put on the cross pattern, The headdress flower is a blooming rose, spreading out a small half-open bone flower. Due to the dark red upper, the flowers are made of light pink, changing layer by layer, plus two light green leaves, which are very beautiful. I fondled to play, but my mother picked me up high and asked me to throw my little shoes from the top of the chimney and give them to little mushrooms to wear. The first pair of shoes made by every little girl must be given to little mushrooms. The magical little mushrooms will open your wisdom and bless your ingenuity, peace and happiness in your life. From now on, the ancient tradition is so warm and romantic, full of fairy tale flavor. The mother who is good at needlework is poetic, even though poverty and hardship can not obliterate half of them at all. After approaching the school, it was far away from needlework, but the ideas originated from the needlework emerged one after another with various patterns. Randomly fold a branch from the broom, choose a small piece of white cloth and cut it into circles one by one, fill it with cotton, tie it in with threads and tie it tightly between the branches of bamboo seedlings, then I smudged with the red ink of the teacher’s homework secretly. A red plum which seemed to be unopened came out and inserted into the thin-necked wine bottle, which became my pride and pride and made my children envious. Since junior high school, I have been living in the school. I have been carrying needlework with me, and my interest has been transferred to clothes. At this time, my mother cried her eyes because she was worried about her brother who participated in the Vietnam War, so she couldn’t do needlework any more. So I picked up the old clothes that my cousin eliminated to wear. The pictures in the clothing magazine tempt me, and the styles of those old clothes were far from satisfying my inner desire to jump. My first ready-to-wear was actually a semi-finished product, which was also a coincidence. I wore the modified Tang suit proudly for two years until I could not put it into my growing body any more, however, this kind of toss cannot be accepted since then. It was a white shirt made by my sister. I didn’t know whether the tailor measured the wrong size, or there was some kind of magic in it, which was specially left for me to practice. On a too wide side, I folded three big live folds and closed them at a distance of 10cm from the bottom. The pleated waist is closed, and the pleated bottom is elegant and flexible, which suits my heart very much. But there were only a few thread ends left at the beginning of the wrinkles on the chest, which were not perfect enough. Then I found a small piece of yellow cloth from my mother’s sewing basket and cut it into five-pointed maple leaves, thinking that I would add a piece of green maple leaves, but I couldn’t find a suitable one any more, so I had to match it with a piece of sky blue maple leaves, embroider the edges and cover them on the thread head. Fortunately, I loved to boast at that time, so I took a few photos for my debut. When I was in high school, I was catching up with Qiong Yao’s novels which swept the campus, but I was more obsessed with the heroine’s clothing in the book. In my memory, those beauties almost all like white trousers with elegant dark shirts. Therefore, the living expenses less than ten yuan a week were deducted again and again by me. I took a few yuan from it to buy several feet of floral silk, and repeatedly found creative inspiration from the words. It often takes a Sunday rest time to fold the cloth of four feet in half. You only need to dig a round neckline, seal the edges, and wear a cut cloth edge strip to make a ribbon. Cut one from the cloth strip dug out under the armpit, wear it on the bottom to make elastic, a chic and elegant batwing shirt, matched with pure white trousers, and then use the rag to make a bow to sew on the rubber band, which is needlework, it made me walk at the forefront of fashion with the careful consideration of spending a few yuan. Now it takes more time to surf the internet and write words. Fortunately, NV Hong is not willing to lose her. She is just like another self hidden in my heart. She has been there all the time. She is on the large and small cross stitch; She is on the hole of the down jacket cut by the child; She is on the embroidery of the corner of a square cloth handkerchief; she was in the creative pattern of children’s sweater; In the sachets of dragon boat festival; She even embroidered the letters of names on the underpants of my children living in school to distinguish them from others; she would even put on a regular button, even an embroidered bookmark, a key pendant with a buckle …… she was still in my poetry, in my regular script, in my gouache paintings, in my interior design, in my eyes, the train of years moves forward all the way, and the scenery walking all the way is stepped back and gradually blurred, only the needlework, I treasured it all the way, deep in my heart. She became the poetry in my heart. She stayed with me from childhood to adulthood, giving me full freedom and full happiness. Like (prose editor: drops of ink become wounds) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…