Unwilling

Lying alone in bed, I don’t want to think or think about anything. I have been recalling in recent days, looking through all the things I have left, in different places and in different periods. It seems that those days that I can’t go back can lie quietly in places that are not noticed. Only I am pursuing my own past. I doubted again and again, and hesitated again and again. Until now, I am still not sure whether I can live up to the past. Although I have told myself many times, the real beginning should start from this moment I am a person who likes nostalgia and likes to look for things that I have never seen in the process of nostalgia, no matter good or bad. Some people say that this is a reaction of lack of security, some say that this is a choice that doesn’t like the status quo, and some say that I may be trapped in the whirlpool of the past too deep. I don’t want to correct or deny all kinds of different sayings, because I don’t know what I am doing! Of course, I have also spent time thinking about it, but it seems that I can get different results every time. Looking back at those fleeting times, I felt flustered, confused, scared and regretful inexplicably. When there were some tears streaming down my face, I felt as if I was looking at stories that didn’t belong to me from my own standpoint. It may be because of the sadness of the unreachable self in the story, and for the unreachable self. Past of time! Not long ago, I silently made a small wish that I would never let down the past time. At that time, I carefully arranged dreams one after another in that secret place. I was afraid of being pried out, so I planned to take care of them with my heart. -Later? Yet there was no good start but a bad ending came to an end, which betrayed his promise like that. I am not willing to blame others, but I am not willing to punish myself, but is there any way to have the best of both sides? Let me know that my IQ is not enough, so I don’t know where to start. If I don’t recall it deliberately, then those things that are not deep or shallow should disappear without trace! Although I haven’t reached the age of senile dementia, sometimes I feel like I have amnesia. Things that happened a few days ago will become blurred, and things that happened a few years ago will be forgotten completely, the terrible thing is to forget that some people who came to my life once heard that they could meet about 2000 people in their life, but I don’t know whether I will meet so many. I always feel that meeting thousands of people can only pass by, but the people who really meet and know each other are less than one in ten thousand, so sometimes it seems a little confused. However, those confused times still passed. Although they did not pass quickly, they were finally left in an invisible place. In the past, I always thought that life was long and time would walk slowly, but when I walked, I found that the time I had passed had been pulled apart for a long time, as if it would come to the end of my life soon. At this time, I found that my wrong thoughts could not change anything. I didn’t know whether I could rely on my own efforts to retain anything except recalling them over and over again. In fact, I just want to keep some of my own time and traces in it. It’s still true: may you and I live up to the past time! Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…