Six Zero

People born in the middle and late 1960 s actually got the feeling of 1960 s from books when they were adults. The earliest time to enter their memory was 1970 s. After finishing the childish toddlers and babbling, I changed my open-backed pants and just got the ability to open my eyes to see the world. Although I couldn’t understand its tide, it was strange, but for us, but it is novel, fresh and attractive. She was held by her mother and went to primary school. The title page of the Chinese textbook was a photo of the great leader and his closest comrade-in-arms, Deputy Commander Lin Biao. This picture was common and was the totem of China in that era. But only two days after the delivery, the dignified female head teacher took all the Chinese textbooks back one by one. After many days, they were sent again. The photo of the two people inside became a great leader standing alone beside a lump of black. Lin Biao was blacklisted, even those of us who were ignorant of politics knew that Vice President Lin was finished and became the class enemy. The September 13 incident confused and astonished people who were in trouble during the Cultural Revolution, and made the craze of the Cultural Revolution begin to drop. He was loyal to Chairman Mao and his closest comrade-in-arms. As the second figure in the party, he unexpectedly exploded himself, it exposed that the people who opposed Chairman Mao were unexpectedly the people around him who were most trusted by his old man. And how could we who were far away defend Chairman Mao and the Party Central Committee? This sense of distance makes people feel powerless to politics. As a result, the political performances of the great series, the great fighting and the critique of the struggle had a weak and weak low tide. But the basic trend of the society has not changed, and it is still the mainstream of the Society of class struggle, but the theme is changed to criticize Lin Biao Kong, and all kinds of posters and cartoons that criticize Lin Biao Kong’s second child and his lackeys are overwhelming, the era background of people’s life. In this atmosphere, people once again took part in all kinds of political learning that they must take part in, making statements, reporting informations and exposing each other. Put all the differences and conflicts caused by various backgrounds into the political context for opposition and struggle, making them rise to the contradiction between the enemy and the enemy. They expressed mutually opposite political standpoints with common political language. They rushed to express their loyalty and draw boundaries, which made people exhausted and exhausted. Therefore, they also made adults look after each other. As long as the children go home to eat and sleep, it seems that there is no spare capacity to pay more attention. We in the childhood era became a group of people who were ignored by that era unexpectedly and fortunately. Political movement divides people into different political communities, and whether you are willing or not, you must participate in the performance. Although you know it is an absurd play, no one dares to play it. Therefore, the role play in this political drama will certainly affect the separation and aggregation among children. However, the children who mingled with each other day and night didn’t have so much heavy adult consciousness in their hearts. The frolic and playful mix wiped out the opposition and tension assigned by the big world. Only when there is conflict between children can the position of adults be brought into the current events to strengthen the hostile effect. Generally speaking, the adults who were born in the old times and had received the old-style education and the traditional sense of kindness and kindness, no matter what kind of faction, treat the children who were only ten years old at that time as children. Especially in small counties in pastoral areas with small population, this is especially true. The pressure from environment exceeds that from others. In fact, everyone knows a basic common sense that in this Alpine region, life is not easy, and people need to rely on each other rather than oppose each other to survive. Facing the harsh nature, it is not wise for people to struggle with differences. Therefore, in such areas, the effect of political movements is often compromised. Except for some people who have political ambitions, more people just take all these as regulated actions that they have to do for life, finish them mechanically step by step and write reports, just copy Liang Xiao and shout slogans, saying yes or no, without enthusiasm and seriousness. Therefore, when Chinese face the powerful power of being unable to change, they have the survival wisdom of vanity and resentment. When sincerity becomes dangerous, Hypocrisy becomes a natural choice. The pretending suffering of adults in the political whirlpool instead gives children free living space. Therefore, we unexpectedly retained the relatively complete nature of children and enjoyed the freedom of growing up and the pleasure of integrating in nature in that era of being turned upside down. There is no compulsory pre-treatment by the market-oriented education system like now. Under the influence of Zhang Tiesheng and Huang Shuai, scores basically became the symbol of slavery and were criticized and spurned, like the farmer who wants to go to college in the movie “break”, when facing the interview of professors who advocate the qualification to go to college, the farmer youth who has no education background but strong desire to go to college, with tears in my eyes, I had a bitter memory of the comparison between the old and the new, denouncing angrily the persecution and devastation of the bourgeois education route on the vast number of workers, peasants and soldiers in the first decade and seven years of the Cultural Revolution, the interview was turned into an exciting criticism meeting with great emotion. Finally, with the strong support of the numerous revolutionary workers, peasants and soldiers, the interview was qualified to go to college with thick calluses full of hands, finally, he entered Jiangxi Communist labor University, which was managed and reformed by workers, peasants and soldiers. However, the professor played by Ge You’s father Ge Cunzhuang, who talked about the function of horsetail in class, could only end up in a pitiful situation which was ridiculed and spurned by the working masses. Therefore, it is an important symbol of reactionary education route to judge whether it is good or bad by scores in school, which is the naked class revenge on the masses by scores. Therefore, our exams at that time had forms, and we dared not to oppress students with scores. Of course, there was no troublesome homework after class, all day long in the world where there are not so many people and pollution, they are playing in groups and growing naturally: picking branches and weaving straw hats on trees; Folding maids to make slingshots; Making barbecue with muddy river fish; camping in Gobi and burning potatoes; Looking for Suoyang in the sand place; Picking wild onions on the side of the stream; Fighting in groups with broken blood; Dare not say anything when returning home. The boy’s best dress was to wear a green military cap. Anyway, wearing a green hat at that time meant wearing a green hat. There was no other meaning. The atmosphere of wearing a military cap continued until the early 1980 s, at that time, young people robbed military caps, which made the soldiers impossible to prevent. Just like today’s mobile phones, a military cap was the standard configuration of young people in that era. Wear a camouflage made of branches in circles on the hat; The waist is a military armed belt, and of course the best buckle is made of copper, and then insert an imitation barge gun. If it is more exquisite, he would sew a small piece of white cloth under the left shoulder of the clothes, on which the words of Chinese People’s Volunteers were described in a crooked way, although it was not clear whether the Liberation Army had anything to do with the volunteers?? But the three characters of PLA remind us more of the Green Liberation truck. Therefore, we think these three words of volunteer army are more mighty, more magnificent and more fashionable than PLA. With this kind of dress, you can be the leading role in the battle game. If you have many wooden guns, you can send them to your companions, then, these people will accept your toys, and at the same time, they will listen to your dispatch submissively. There will be a clear arrangement for who plays the enemy and who is one of their own. Ambush in the grass, or hide in the trees to attack secretly. I even climbed to the ceiling mezzanine of the auditorium and peeped down from the gap of the roof on the truss bar. Now I feel scared when I think about it. In September, just a few days after I went to middle school in July and June, Chairman Mao, who had a long life, passed away. People all over the country burst into tears. Together with countless wailing people, we also stood and attended the memorial meeting for several hours. When listening to adults chatting, they expressed various concerns about China without Mao Zedong. In October, Wang Zhangjiang Yao Gang of Four was smashed by the wise leader, and the whole nation was joyous again, beating drums and gongs. Li Guangxi’s toast and Chang Xiangyu’s happy event found out the gang of four. Popular north and south. Soon, Deng Xiaoping came back to power three times, preparing to be the chief designer. Xu Chi’s reportage Goldbach conjecture encouraged young people to march towards the ideal of science; The school gradually calmed down from the noisy Cultural Revolution, began to reorganize and began to have hope. The resumption of college entrance examination in July and July gave young people the opportunity to change their fate through their own efforts. At that time, in Xinhua Bookstore, “math, physics and chemistry college entrance examination self-study series”, which was specially published for college entrance examination review, became the most popular commodity. As long as it was on the counter, it was immediately sold out. Entering University becomes the symbol of success in life and the peak experience of individuals. At this time, the education circle was in the recovery stage of nothing to be done, so the systematic oppression of college entrance examination for students had not been formed yet. Although the enrollment rate of college entrance examination at that time was not the same as that of now-only 4% of the people could go, for example, in 1981, the number of students enrolled by universities nationwide in that year was only 2.70,000, which was even less than that of a province in Guangdong now. By reason, the pressure of entering a higher school at that time should be much higher than that at present. But in the actual feeling, it is not the same as the current students who bear such great pressure of academic examination. At that time, computers only existed faintly in the legend and had nothing to do with people’s life. In practice, teachers, just like traditional craftsmen with exquisite craftsmanship, still painstakingly put steel plates on the wax paper, engraved carefully selected test questions with iron pens and personality one by one, and then printed them one by one. The process is not only quite laborious, but also the source of test materials is quite limited. Because the ordinary homework can not be printed and copied on a large scale, the students can only see the blackboard and copy the questions manually. Therefore, the impulse to obtain the examination ability through large-scale practice is strongly weakened by the limitation of technical conditions. Therefore, the students also avoided the misfortune of indulging in the sea of questions. I think in a dark way, it only takes three months or less to prepare for the college entrance examination, It is a huge conspiracy created by the immoral education system to lengthen the marathon from junior high school or even primary school, which makes the current students bear more and more pressure artificially. Make the college entrance examination a huge industry, and achieve the political achievements of leaders, the names of teachers, the achievements of experts, the benefits of booksellers and the honors of schools. The core argument to guarantee the rationality of the existence of this industry is the specious theory of social equity. It seems fair to ruin children’s imagination, ideals and fun of life, and then stand on a so-called same starting line to compete fairly. Of course, the competition in the Paralympics is also fair! To College. The luckiest thing was that those relics of the old who were influenced by the education of the Republic of China, experienced the Cultural Revolution against rightist, were buried completely by the great Mao Zedong Thought, and persisted in living till the end of the Cultural Revolution, he was liberated from Hu Yaobang’s rectification of the chaos, and was rehabilitated and reinstated one after another to go back to school and get on the platform. You can also see the style of study and composition of this generation inside and outside the classroom. Many comments shocked people and caused deep thinking. Then I felt hopelessly that I not only had the superficial self-righteous but also had the lofty aspirations of the dark mind. Therefore, I made up my mind to regard reading as an ambition after suffering and cruelty. The library became a must-go place every day, reading all kinds of books encountered, heard and seen without any hesitation. The Commercial Press published world famous works, among which the philosophy full set of 38 books was more than 100 yuan. At that time, the board cost in January was only 19 yuan and 50 cents, so I could buy a small crisp meat at 35 cents; This was a huge sum of money, so I, then I pretended to read these obscure classics, experiencing self-denial and torture again and again in my heart, and experiencing the taste of life that was beyond my knowledge and unknown. The tide of foreign thoughts which had been blocked for decades surged in. On campus, academics moved towards liberation and aesthetics became fashion; Students wrote poems in a popular fashion; Criticism of novel expression, scar literature became the trend of literature and art in the early 1980 s, and thought began to have personality. Existentialism compared with the absurdity of the Cultural Revolution; Freud yearned for the return of humanity; Tolerance satirized the unitary thought. There were great discussions of various guiding meanings —– humanitarianism; Value of money; Meaning of life and so on; Such situation was brewed until the end of 1980 s, the openness and freedom like “World Economic Herald” and “new observation” appeared all over the country —- the era that almost matched the Republic of China in news and newspaper industry ended at the turn of spring and summer. May of Ji Si was a boundary monument, which marked the complete disillusionment of the pure ideal advocated by people in the 1960 s. Since then, I no longer believe in any self-advertised morality and sublime. The outlook on life turns from “yes. Compress my pure emotions and ideals that proved to be failures, dry them in the sun, then crush them, then bury them deep in the darkest part of my heart and internalize them into the spiritual genes of our generation, then he began to change his face and turn around, no longer entangled with social responsibility morality and conscience, because conscience was proved to be a disease; No longer asked about morality, because morality is just an alias for the interests of a small group of people. I began to pay attention to the present, so I copied the next generation. From the early 1990 s, people in 1960 s began to have children one after another, and then went into business, being easy-going and corrupt, conspiring with corruption, selling themselves to seek refuge and flattering promotion. Along this way, the gains and losses of undeserved fame have suddenly been proved; When children grow up, it becomes unnecessary to operate the well. Therefore, he was conquered by the sensual, relaxed and fat, and understood the secrets of the world through multiple experiences; The false lies and hypocrisy were broken in the flood of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages; So he reduced his enthusiasm, and gradually, those young people who didn’t know who Zhao Ziyang was began to become colleagues, enjoying the superficial respect they gave us to show that they were no longer young. Entering middle age, I have mixed feelings. Looking back, the sense of disillusionment of life cannot stop coming. So I began to pursue faith, believing in Buddhism and reading Buddhist scriptures; Worshiping into the church; Hoping to face the coming old age with peace, and more hoping to illustrate the reincarnation of life and death with a philosophical tact. The experience accumulated by time has given the life wisdom which is ripe, and the understanding of 50 people who know 49 yuan. So no longer stubborn, no longer arguing, want to life is limited, ruin life Gaunt, how many dusk can disappear? He slowed down his steps, stopped arguing and arguing. When he saw the young people who gave up their own words saying sorrow with ambition, he felt a little cool in early autumn. Therefore, there was tolerance, and gradually became comfortable after the day of clearing up the void. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city

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