Woman

The clock ticked and time went by. The moon was full and the moon was short. Walking on the road of life, unconsciously, I stepped into the ranks of 40 years old. Looking back suddenly, I can’t help sighing that I am already a middle-aged woman of 40 years old. I am not only confused but also a little incredible. It seems that yesterday, I was still spoiled in front of my mother, I am already 40 years old with a little temper and a little pursed mouth. How can I suddenly work hard? When my daughter stood in front of me and was a little taller than me, I finally no longer doubted that I actually stepped into the ranks of 40-year-old women. Oh, forty years old! What kind of mood should I take to welcome my forty years old? What kind of mentality should I take to face my 40-year-old life? People all say that a woman Twenty is a flower, and a woman Thirty is a bean curd residue, let alone a 40-year-old woman. Maybe every 40-year-old woman has a little bit of self-sorrow and self-sorrow in terms of age and appearance. Perhaps, it is because I am a woman who is very ordinary in both appearance and other aspects. I don’t care much about my old face and the death of youth. Looking back on the 40 years of life, I just want to make a small summary of my life for the first half of my life on the day of my 40th birthday, leaving a little for my life, A unique mark belonging to oneself. When I am too old to walk in the future, when I am too old to look back, I will take it out and slowly recall, slowly chew, and slowly recall my mood at this moment, together with countless yesterday that will never come back, it will be recorded and meaningful! Before the age of 40, we took a life path of growth, study, pursuit, endeavor and struggle. Along the way, I have tasted all kinds of flavors of life, the world is hot and cold, and the human feelings are warm and cold. People and things that could not be accepted before have learned to accept calmly; The sufferings and pains that could not be endured before have learned to bear silently. The original willfulness and persistence, after the polishing of life, smoothed the mind and polished the edges and corners. Looking back on the past, how many hardships and sorrows have been indifferent. The hurdles that I once thought I couldn’t get through had gone with the wind in the corridor of the past which was like a dream. The pains that I once thought I couldn’t bear had been sleeping in the river of history with the change of time. Years will finally make people understand that there is no obstacle that can’t pass in life, only the mood that can’t pass. Therefore, I learned how to face injustice with smile and cope with fate calmly. No longer impatient when encountering things, no longer exaggerated when dealing with things. Before the age of 40, I always hope others can understand myself, especially afraid of being misunderstood by others. Therefore, when something happens, I always like to argue and express my opinions eagerly. Gradually, I have been used to listening first and then speaking. Facing the misunderstanding of others, I have gradually learned to laugh over. I realized a truth that some things need to be explained, because misunderstanding can be solved; While some explanations are redundant, because no matter how many explanations are, they are in vain. Face the misunderstanding calmly, because time will clarify everything. Looking back at the road I have traveled, I always feel that I have been struggling to find a person who can know and understand myself, so I locked myself in my heart knot and trudged for half my life, in the end, I found that it was still myself who could really understand myself. At the age of 40, I finally learned to bury my mind and deal with my emotions, and I won’t expect others to understand myself any more. Although, sometimes I still feel so sad that I can’t get along with myself, I have learned to let time help myself calm down everything. Before the age of 40, I might not know what kind of clothes are suitable for me. I always like to buy clothes very much. Almost every season, I will buy new clothes, and I will also buy some clothes that are not suitable for me. I don’t know when I don’t like shopping anymore. Even if I buy clothes deliberately, I won’t be like before. Even if I can’t see what I like, I have to go home before I go home, pick a dress that you don’t like very much. At the age of forty, I finally learned to choose the clothes that suit me and I like, otherwise I would rather lack than abuse. Just like making friends, before the age of 40, I was always eager to make intimate friends, so I would make friends with everyone, and I would not see if others treat you as a friend. At the age of 40, I have learned to make friends selectively, and make friends with people who share hobbies with me and can treat friends sincerely. Treating people with sincerity and dealing with things honestly is my consistent style and also the principle of dealing with people. At the age of 40, after experiencing the subjects of studying, working, getting married, raising children and so on, I can finally understand the hardship that my parents raised us in those years, and I can finally realize being a parent, there are many difficulties and all kinds of helplessness, and finally I can understand my parents’ good intentions of looking forward to success and success. Facing my children, I put away my bad temper, worn out my patience and dug out my potential. If it were not for my child, I would never know why my parents’ mind was so broad and could tolerate everything of the child; If it were not for my child, I would never know, it turned out that my parents used such broad minds to tolerate my willfulness in those years; If it wasn’t for my children, I would never know that I still had a lot of potential to dig out. Children not only add a lot of fun to me, give me a goal in my life, give me the motivation to move forward, but also give full play to my potential. I put all my parents’ devotion to me into my children. Children are almost the whole of my life. At the age of 40, facing the old age of parents, a feeling called sadness arises spontaneously. Because of life and work, I traveled outside every day. Suddenly one day, I found that my parents’ temples were covered with white frost, and my eyes became wet immediately. It turned out that my parents were old when I only focused on my own career, work and family, and my body began to stoop and my teeth had fallen off, but I unexpectedly had no consciousness. The sense of guilt filled my chest and the sense of shock struck my heart. A sense of powerlessness made me depressed and painful to cry. When the child was older, my parents were old. For the sake of the child, I ignored my parents’ old age, I have wiped my tears secretly with my parents behind my back. I can’t change my life, old age, illness and death. I can only spend more time with my parents and listen to their nagging when my parents are still alive, just like Chen Hong’s “often go home to watch”, parents only hope that their children can spend more time with themselves, and the family can live in peace and harmony. For them, this is happiness. At the age of 40, I understood a lot and looked down upon a lot; At the age of 40, I learned a lot and endured a lot. Forty years old is like a dividing line, dividing life into the first half of life and the latter half of life. The life of the first half of my life was always trudging from one mountain to another; I was always choosing, choosing the road under my feet, the road of life; I was always confused, I don’t know how to walk on the road under my feet, whether to wait or chase; I am always groping, and everything I haven’t experienced has to be done by myself. In the first half of my life, there were always too many uncertainties, too many confusion and too many pursuits. In the latter half of my life, I have been able to see clearly the direction of the road under my feet. Both my career and my family have stepped into a stable zone without much change, there won’t be too many accidents. Peace and stability should be the life you want for the rest of your life, and also the life you want for the rest of your life. I don’t want to be colorful, but to be stable and safe! Although it is already 40 years old, don’t let yourself stop learning, because only continuous learning can inject fresh blood into life; Although it is already 40 years old, however, don’t attribute yourself to the old generation in your heart. If you all acquiesced that you are old in your heart, your mind will be old and your mind will be vicissitudes. Although you are already 40 years old, however, we should also adhere to the principle of treating people with sincerity and doing things with heart. Now that you are already 40 years old, you should accept the fact that your appearance is old, and don’t feel bitter about it because your appearance is old; Now that you are already 40 years old, you should learn to cherish the people around you more and know how to cherish and follow the fate; now that you are already 40 years old, you should always hang your smile on your face, hide your sadness deep in your heart, allow yourself to feel sad and sentimental occasionally, but never allow yourself to immerse yourself in sadness for a long time; Since, at the age of 40, you should be more tolerant to others and always remember to face others’ mistakes with an inclusive heart. Forty years old, looking back at the past thirty or twenty years old, I found that my mood was already different. When I was 50 years old, I looked back at the life feelings recorded today, maybe it will only get your own calm smile. 40-year-old woman, 40-year-old feelings, engraved here, eternal! 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