Aftertaste

My fear is in two seasons, one in hot summer and the other in cold winter. It is the invigilation period of the exam at the end of a semester. I used to compare invigilation to the imprisonment of professional sense on our body and mind. The unspeakable helplessness was written in our nervous and serious expressions. Half an hour before invigilation, we will walk into the conference room at the same time. Sitting in the corresponding seat, eating the two steamed buns in hand, waiting for the rustling footsteps of the leaders and the sound of dry cough. Finally, in our expectation, the leaders entered the conference room with notebooks and test papers, and began to nag us about what teachers should and should not do. In boredom, we waited for the order to go to the examination room. As soon as we entered the examination room, our roles changed. One was the aunt of the cleaner, looking for garbage in the corridor and classroom; The other was a machine that could be used as a scanner, using those sharp eyes, scan from the first table to the Forth. See if there is any information related to the exam. If there is, we will walk to the table leisurely and let the book move to the platform in a triumphant posture until it is cleared. There is no sound in the exam, just waiting for the ringing of the exam. The examination papers have been distributed, and the examinees have different expressions. Some were poised and proud; Some sighed and were all disappointed; Some were not too tight but not too slow. They saw the test paper from the beginning to the end, then buried their heads with a smile; Some looked numb, A pen is repeatedly rotated by a finger. From slight noise to silence in the exam. However, the position of our teachers must be in front of each other in the classroom. We can’t walk around for fear that the examinees will be distracted; We can’t make any noise for fear of disturbing the examinees’s thoughts; We can’t talk or watch their mobile phones, I am afraid that a higher monitor will suddenly attack you and stare at you with his big eyes. Then you will be informed criticism at the meeting, which makes you ashamed. With thousands of thoughts and expediency, I found the bench from the corner of the examination room, blew off the dust and sat down. Although it is a bench tailored for students, occasionally there will be a phenomenon of three legs, but if you want to defeat standing for up to one to two hours with unyielding spirit, I believe that you will still choose to surrender, and your unyielding perseverance will betray you eventually. It’s time to consider how to spend the boring invigilation. It’s better to sit down first, put one leg on the other leg, and then start to look left and right, looking around. At this time, I envy examinees. They have something to do, but what about us? How many minutes and seconds should I spend! Simply, stretch the goose’s neck to look at the test questions of the examinees. Unexpectedly, the examinees were not generous and sealed the questions tightly with hands or books. I shook my head and thought: it’s OK, it’s OK. It’s time to put this leg on that leg, and put your hands on it by the way. Suddenly I saw something black and dirty in the finger of a fingernail, and my eyes were shining. It seemed that when I was hopeless to find a job for a long time, I suddenly received a notice to let me go to work and was overjoyed. Therefore, I took turns bombing my nails one by one. I didn’t give up until they were all clean and my face smiled satisfie. At this time, I secretly took out my mobile phone, pressed the phone button, and found that the time was moving a little bit so stingy. Change your sitting posture, your legs are numb. It is not my elegant image to raise my legs. I will abandon it. Stand up, twist your waist in place, turn your neck three times from left to right, and then turn your neck several times. After a few beats, you suddenly feel dizzy. Think about it, it’s better to sit down. I began to doubt whether the invigilation over the past few years was spent like a walking corpse? Doubt makes me have to recall. Memories are graceful. I began to like this word. It is gentle and amiable, fragrant and charming. It is unfathomable. It has great magic power that makes me immerse myself in the time of memories. Because of it, I suddenly feel that when the body is greatly bound, the soul will yearn for the wandering of thinking more. I thought of the invigilator last time: sitting still, there were always many scenes in my mind. I connected them with sentences in my heart, and the birth of “night” came into being. Looking back now, I was still excited and almost forgot my shape. I hid the joy in my heart quietly, and my expression couldn’t stop shining and my heart began to fluctuate. I also thought of whether I should give up my unfinished article. As the saying goes, when I continue, my mood will be different. The flavor of the continuation will become different from the original truth. Thinking like this, my Restless Heart suddenly enlightened me. Suddenly, it is rare for me to be so active in thinking, so I simply think about what I have done wrong in the past 30 years and what is worth doing. After thinking deeply, it ended with a disastrous defeat. How can we use this short moment to answer the things of our life when we are wandering in the world of mortals? Perhaps, we have to spend our whole life to sort out and untie the connected cause and effect and the interlaced fishing nets in our life! Thinking of life, I stopped again. Life, the words made up of several paintings concentrate all of us. Life made up of the second sound and the first sound reads illusory and seems like floating clouds, however, it can express the joys and sorrows of our whole life. It is also a feeling that we cannot explain clearly! There is only five minutes left for the whistle to ring. What should I say about time? When I was looking forward to its rapid progress, it was daggering; When I ignored and forgot it, it urged me to wake up from my dream. In the backward time and the forward future, I thought of a sentence said by Lin Qingxuan: live soberly in the present! Although we can see many successful achievements later, they have all become waves in the long river of time. Although you can see more scenery with your head held high, everything is in the mist. Only by living in the present seriously and looking down at your own steps can you get out of the fog and welcome the gorgeous scenery. Or pick a piece of water moon, or pick a mirror flower. Invigilation is coming again, and I will treat it with ease. Perhaps, I should take the wooden fish that is often seen in the temple and the huge eyes of the wooden fish to alert me. In the limitation of drawing the ground as a prison, I should also let my heart recover the function of bright and clear lighting; let it look at us who live in the world with great eyes, and how to wash our hearts endlessly. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring

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