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24 years is it too long in one’s life? I don’t know. But in these 24 years, we gradually returned to the original point after going through too much heart-wrenching. Suddenly one day, you applied to add me on my QQ, which I didn’t expect. After a short hesitation, I clicked yes in the prompt whether to agree or not, but none of us spoke. The next day, you said hello to me, but it was just a smiling expression, being polite, I could only reply to you. The first conversation started like this two or ten years later. I don’t know whether this is a blessing or a curse for us! In the conversation, you said that we had been separated for 24 years, although I knew this number even if you didn’t say it. One or two decades ago, we were still young and ignorant. At that time, none of us knew how much youth we could squander, it is in those years that we still think it is beautiful that life slips quietly at our fingertips, and our love slips away at the same time. I don’t know when you came into my heart, but I like to secretly take out your homework from your schoolbag and watch your meaningful handwriting when you are away at noon, I like to see you concentrate on drawing ink painting one by one, and I like to see you show your talent with writing brush in front of me. After graduation, you gave me a pen and said to be a souvenir. Maybe we will be different from each other. At that time, I never thought about what we would look like in the future! A month later, we had our own results. You were admitted to the demonstration, but I failed to enter the same school with you because of various human factors, maybe we have been doomed to the end of today since then! At the beginning of school, I was usually proud of going to high school, but my father wanted me to go back to school and try to take the exam next year. There was no way out. All my resistance in front of my father was useless. In the end, return to school. On a high and light noon, you appeared outside the school wall. My classmate told me that you were here. That was the first time I had a heartbeat for you in my life. I wanted to see you, I want to hear you tell me about your new school. I want to see your appearance a few months later, but I am afraid to let the teacher know and my classmates see it. In such hesitation, we couldn’t see each other we wanted to see, and then you left because you still had class in the afternoon. In the end, you asked my classmates to send me what you gave me, which was a review material and a set of exercises. Maybe this is the so-called beginning of love, maybe this is the first love between you and me, pure like a blooming azalea, and only the intoxicating fragrance. Now I can’t imagine how fast my heart beat and how Red my small face was at that time. I just put that bag of things into the desk mechanically, I didn’t dare to look at any student’s face for the whole afternoon, and didn’t listen to any question explained by the teacher. While everyone was free to go to the canteen for dinner, I secretly took what you gave me back to the dormitory and hid it under the quilt, At night, I secretly opened the book you gave me during the day. There was even a painting you drew in it, but there was not even a word of comfort or encouragement. In the following days, I skimmed through those mountains of questions, never saw you, even never thought of you. In the golden autumn and September, I naturally walked into the school that changed my fate. I became the second child in the village who could have public meals, and also became the pride of my parents for a lifetime. The most beautiful years of my life are frozen in this yard with small bridges and flowing water because of you. Soon after I registered in the new school, I saw you. I knew you came to see me specially. The first time I saw you, you just laughed, silly …… and then, naturally, I received the first love letter in my life. It seemed that there was still ink fragrance in Junxiu’s handwriting. Because you are in the same city, there are not many letters you wrote to me, but I really like to sneak into the woods of the school to read your letters quietly, once or twice …. occasionally you will come to see me, and you still won’t say too much, but I know, so we will find a quiet place tacitly, and I will follow you, timid, they dare not even hold a hand, this is our love! Two years have passed, and you are about to graduate and go to work. Somehow you suddenly realize that our relationship cannot be known to your family! Not because I don’t love, but because I am an alien in your nation above faith! After a painful choice, I told you my thoughts in words, and then I broke up for the first time. I was only 18 years old that year. I don’t know if you feel distressed after reading that letter, but you came to me again soon, and still don’t have much language. At that moment, I saw that your eyes were no longer clear, but only a slight sadness. That day, you looked at me without saying a word for a long time, then slipped me a letter and left silently. The back and the eyes became the nightmare of my whole life! In fact, I know you know better than me. As long as you walk out of school, the first thing you face is not to find a job, but to follow the matchmaker’s advice of your parents to marry and have children! I know this is unfair to you, but we have no choice. This is fate! In that letter, you said that you didn’t want to give up. Even if your head was broken, you would certainly fight for it and let me wait for you. But we all know very well that in that era, it was very rare to persuade parents of both sides to break through the rules of a nation to achieve the love between us, at the age of 18, I would give up my love to complete two innocent families in order to give birth to our parents! Therefore, after a painful choice, I wrote the last letter to you resolutely and hid you in the softest place in my heart forever. Although you wrote to me that you were fighting for it, I chose reason. I don’t want to let each other’s families jump because of us! In this way, the love of a flower girl was strangled by herself. I will see you again at that classmate’s gathering. I remembered that it was a rainy afternoon. My classmate Lao soda called me and said that he was going back to Nanjing and asked me to come and sit down. I readily agreed, but when I arrived at his house, but it put me in a dilemma, because I saw you from outside the window! However, since I have broken my appointment, I should not leave immediately. It is inappropriate for me to understand. Here, I also met your wife for the first time, wearing a distinctive national characteristics, at first glance, she was a woman who obeyed the rules and etiquette. At this moment, I waited alone for 18 years! I have imagined what our goodbye would be like for countless times, but I never thought it would be like this. I don’t know if it’s because it’s hard to say that my wife is in charge of the supervisor or I have already become the old calendar you have turned over. You didn’t say a word in this meeting, just when I heard you talking about your works with them, I asked you, are you still insisting on your artistic creation? You answered me lightly: Yes! At that moment, I thought I was ridiculous, even pitiful, and the mixed feelings in my heart could not be described in words. The party was over, and the rain outside the house was still falling. I walked alone in the deserted street by the looming neon, feeling the loneliness I had never seen before. Occasionally, one or two people passed, but they were all in a hurry and couldn’t see their expressions clearly. Maybe they were all looking for their way home. However, on this rainy night, where is my destination? But I still appreciate that fate made me know you, thank you for giving me those happy times and unforgettable memories, and thank my life for being beautiful because of you! The next day, I took out the painting which had been treasured for 18 years, and the letters you gave me. I read it again and again, and once thought it was the wealth of my life, but what I saw that day was full of sadness, no passion, no touch, and then burned, I knew I should put it down. The twinkling Mars seemed to be mysterious eyes, blinked to me, and soon disappeared with the smoke, just like our love, nowhere to find …… today, however, you appeared quietly and in this way. I once appreciated a sentence: it is better to miss each other than to meet each other. Can I do it?

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