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When people reach a certain age, there is inevitably some nostalgia. Especially in our generation, when dealing with students every day, we can always find the shadow of yesterday from them. In a flash, I found that my youth had already faded away, forgetting that I was getting older day by day. When I met a senior high school student recently, I couldn’t help thinking of Tao Yuanming’s ancient poem, which was not coming again in the prime year and was hard to go into the morning again, which increasingly proved that my youth was no longer there and my youth faded away. On that day, if it hadn’t been introduced by Alvin, a fellow villager who worked in the same city, I couldn’t believe that the old man with gray hair, wrinkles on his face, slightly black skin and dull eyes in front of him, it turned out to be a Lin, a lively, young and handsome high school classmate with white skin and talking and laughing more than 40 years ago. Time is really a sharp sword of heartless. I didn’t expect to carve a young and sunny face into such a vicissitudes, which makes people unbearable. When old classmates meet, they are naturally very kind. In order to fulfill the friendship of the landlord, I took care of ARIN in a small restaurant and specially invited Arvin to accompany me. Arin grew me up to one year old. When I was in high school, he and Arwen were in class B and I were in class A. Although they were different from each other, Arin and I had a very good relationship. They often played together. At that time, there were 120 students in three classes of grade A, grade B and grade C in our senior high school, and they were the graduates who could endure hardship most during the Cultural Revolution. At that time, in order to respond to the call of Chairman Mao’s students to focus on learning and learn different things, they not only need to learn from workers and farmers, but also to learn from the army, which was organized by the school, eight-year-old students took them to the factory to pick bricks, and sometimes went to the production team to participate in labor, which made us too tired to stand up. Alin is taller than me. However, my body was relatively thin, and it was a little difficult to pick things. In order to help me finish the task, Alin always added more sizes and picked more, and then we went back to school together. After finishing two years of high school, because there was no college entrance examination at that time, they all went back to where they were. Those related to it were recruited into factories as workers, some went to the army, and some were recommended to go to college; Those who had no access had to stay in the countryside to build the Earth. At that time, because we were young, we were not afraid of suffering from hardship at all. What we were afraid of was that all the knowledge we learned from teachers was wasted. Fortunately, there were not many cultural people in the village where I worked. When I graduated from high school, I was employed as a private teacher by the central primary school of the commune. Since then, most high school students have never been in contact with each other. I know nothing about the situation of Alin after graduation, because most of our high school graduates came from rural areas and were far away from each other. I remember that in the year when I resumed the college entrance examination, I was admitted to a normal college in the province. I heard about Alin in the county. I also wanted to meet him at that time, but because of the long distance, then he gave up the opportunity to meet him, who knew that this separation would last for 40 years. Sitting in an elegant box in a small restaurant, looking at the old schoolmate’s old face, I opened the gate and asked about his past. After a few greetings, Alin told me that he was recruited as a worker by a state-owned factory when he graduated from high school. At that time, it was a factory envied by the whole family. The welfare was good and the salary was high, so many people couldn’t get in if they wanted to go in. In the early 1990 s, the factory gradually declined, and even the salary could not be paid. At this juncture, the wife of dregs couldn’t stand the torture of poverty. She threw an eight-year-old daughter to him and married a local cadre who was twenty years older than her. A year later, after being introduced, he got to know his present wife and gave birth to a daughter, living a very hard life. Later, State-run factory final due to insolvency bankruptcy, he unfortunately laid-off, slope others Drive Live, monthly for enough to earn 500 or 600 yuan money to support family size four. Three years ago, the car stopped, but in order to live, he had to face off. Under the care of the county labor department, he became a sanitation worker with a monthly salary of less than 800 yuan. Now that he has retired, he will help others to work as a short-time worker. This time he came to the city where I lived just to help him find a doorman through his classmate awen. Hearing Alin talking about these, he felt a little sad. In today’s world, it doesn’t matter without a job, because it is easy to find a job, but it is absolutely impossible to have no money. Although Alin had retired, it was supposed to be the time to enjoy the happiness of family, but in order to live, he had to keep running around for his life when he was old, and it was really hard to live. When we think of yesterday, our ideals, pursuits and ambitions are no longer there. It seems that in a twinkling of an eye, we have gradually grown old, and the rest is just memories. That romance, that persistence and that expectation have already become today’s dilemma, seeking a trace of comfort in the heart in melancholy and confusion. Shaohua fades, we are all getting old, youth is no longer, ideals are no longer, and lofty ambitions are no longer. Thinking of these, the song “Where Has Time Gone” suddenly echoed in my ears: I am old before I feel young, and I have given birth to my son and daughter all my life, and my mind is full of children crying and laughing. Where did time go? Your eyes were wasted before you had a good look at them. After half a life, only wrinkles on your face were left in a flash. Yes, life is like a blink of an eye. One day passes by, and another life passes. Perhaps, only when people reach this age, everything has been seen through. What kind of wealth and wealth, what kind of money and beauty, are all passing by. Only a strong body can belong to oneself. Right? Look at my classmate Alin. Although I have reached the age of flower, I still have to rush about life and fight against fate. In a flash, Shaohua faded away. We are no longer young, but what we have is a young heart, which can also benefit our future generations. In order to survive, we all have to live well, not for anything else, just for life. (WEN/Dongfang mu) Zan (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) snow elimination in spring

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