Tonight

It was the cold wind blowing through the night, so with the creaking steps, the cheeks gradually froze after five minutes, and the fingertips were also cool after a while, the streetlight beside the street also seemed to be afraid of people. The light which was pitiful was not clear, and the sparse withered branches were shy hiding. ——- Inscription (1) now it is nearly a New Year. Let’s say that the day is fast. The festival is like a whizzing and no one can breathe. It is coming one after another like a hurry. This period of time, god took care of me, and let me enjoy the rare refreshing and leisure all of a sudden. Today, I went to the previous office to do some personal affairs, and suddenly heard that Liu **was dead. That thin, small, strong woman finally spent 2 million yuan in three years, he was a prisoner of illness and gave up. Although it was not surprising, the news made me awe-inspiring. At the age of more than forty, although I had passed the mood, I still had charm, qualifications, details, an extremely good Chinese year with detached ability, is it so irresponsible? I think her life trace goes back, life orientation career goal life habits, it seems that she has already fixed the end of life for her, this ending may be no regrets for her, but what can be used to make up for the sadness left to parents and children? I don’t know if she has thought deeply before. The blooming flowers withered on the day that should not have withered. (2) recently, I have read too many secular things in various ways, which seems to be too indigestion, just like a greedy child who has to take some medicine to digest, so as not to be full of abdominal distension and out of breath. I think I am also unpromising enough. I am afraid that I will die of pedantic reading without rhythm. I also blame myself secretly,! Ha ha, Zhu Deyong’s comics, George Whitman’s Shakespeare bookstore opened for half a century, Zhou Guoping’s seven arguments about life, Mo Yan’s plump breasts and hips, “Street Cat” by famous Canadian writer Yves beauchmann, what is pure literature, what is marginal poetry, what is film and television photography abstract painting, what is poetry, singing, tea, chess and flowers, there were a lot of all-inclusive loos. All kinds of reading habits in these years finally turned the early literary cynic into a second-Force youth, and then turned back to an ordinary youth. Finally, they were integrated into these tens of thousands of ordinary writers, in fact, the result is just a matter of experience and age. Everyone knows how wise it is to read history, but in this era of cultural fast food, everything is changing with each passing day. The history was made a small difference for the lazy people by Yu Dan and Yi Zhongtian, etc, then history became what they said. I am refused all the time. In principle, I don’t like being led away because I am not a cow, I have a brain that is not only used for breathing, but also afraid of Alzheimer’s disease early. My head is used for chewing like thinking, and then blurting out, not just for eating or gasping. I always think so, and warn those people I want to persuade in this way. (3) today, we all live in a standardized life, which seems to have been formatted, and the cells in our brains are also seriously polluted by the smog in the air, our sense of achievement is alienated by the weird aesthetic orientation around us. Luxury houses, good cars and famous brands are the business cards posted on the forehead, while other humble, shrinking and weak ones are out of place, let alone entering the mainstream, even those who are on the slip are regarded as alternative and alien. But this special tone of urbanization may not be what everyone needs and likes! As a social person, we could have the right to choose a lifestyle that respects the essence of life, because the purpose of living is not to show others or please others, which is very important, life is originally a choice question. You can choose to look up at the starry sky or face the ditch. The bottom line of life is set for yourself. If you want to choose plain, choose it, slowly let yourself be calm, instead of being cynical. Choose to leave yourself some spare time and do something casually? Calm and move; Or stay at home, or go out; Or three to five days, or ten days and a half months, let both body and mind get fully relaxed, put down all emotions, minimalist life, harvest those simple happiness. (Iv) I have been regretting that the goal set ten years ago was still too low, so I finally didn’t achieve some impressive results and reached a peak state. Once upon a time, I always wanted to cry with my chest beat, but I didn’t know when I woke up someday, it seemed that I suddenly came to the watershed of my life. Therefore, I touched my chest gently, and the so-called what I wanted finally suddenly came to an end. A few days ago, I had a leisure trip to the snow village in the mountains, which was self-expression and smoothness. After taking a lot of photos, I looked at it carefully. Well, reluctantly, it was pleasant to myself. No wonder someone flattered me, maybe it was not for the sake of wandering, but when I thought of the 85 Carmen, I still felt too ashamed in my heart. Maybe it was the beauty after years. I always feel that my memory is not very good. After reading so many poems of Tang and Song dynasties, I always recite them in a mess. I often wear them in a straight way. Sometimes I wonder why I passed the course of ancient literature history in college exams! But love is still deadly love, there is no way, like that kind of beauty, like that kind of detachment, like that kind of primitive at the beginning of life. She always likes to live gracefully and herself, to live peacefully and silently, to be alone with the world and to touch the head of the little pet. She looks at me with expectation, I played with some silent characters at leisure, decorated the shabby room from time to time to make her feel warm, tried delicious food occasionally, cooked a beautiful soup to warm my heart… some people said that I was a little lofty, aloof and arrogant, I really don’t care much. I am me, and what is in my heart is invisible to others, although my life and work may be as low as dust, but I know that my heart is strong, and I live quietly in my own world, telling myself what I am concerned about, being flattered and quiet. In this way, I will always feel grateful in my heart for the long years I have been dating. I hope that I will search for the ordinary atmosphere in the rest of my life, pick up those neglected beauty with my hands, and no longer struggle or hesitation, with simplicity, taste with heart, create with emotion, enjoy simple happiness in plain life, quiet, peaceful, and beautiful. Postscript: I am believe that people should be good at heart. Maybe some small actions in daily life may not have a decisive effect instantly, but it may really become a turning point that will change the life of oneself or others, and then make a makeadifference. Don’t look at the present, but firmly believe that the influence will happen, or the influence has already happened. You just don’t know it, but God must know it. (From the Internet) Fang Heer praised it on January 16, 2015 (prose editor: Ink drops become wounds) the snow vanished in spring

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